The BaldNazi is alive and well...

BALDNAZI · Mar 2, 2005

Well its been a very long time my brothers.Just wanted to pop in and say hello.The past few months have been a living hell for myself and my family.Thats why I decided to disappear.I needed the break,and although I do not have the time to post as much as I used to,I will be around more often I hope.

I will not bore you with specifics,but here are a few details.... I had major business problems(almost bankrupt,Im only getting back on my feet now),my girlfriend of 6+ years left me(all the cheating I did caught up with me,and she got fed up,I hate to admit it but my heart was destroyed,I did all I could to get her back,I never cried that much in my life,but I learned my lesson),my grandmother died,and worse of all my father was diagnosed with lung cancer a month ago.Just 2 weeks from today he had his left lung removed.He is going to go through chemo and so far the prognosis is good.He is a cancer survivor having beaten lymphoma about 2 years ago,so hopefully he can make it through this one too.All of these things happened in rapid order and I felt totally overwhelmed.Its amazing how fast an awesome life can turn to shit.Alot of you know how I live,I live well and I love life.These past few months really kicked me in the ass.I went through some very bad depression.Really bad,bordering on giving up.But Im still here and I know I will be better then I ever was in all aspects of my life.

My training definetly suffered but Im still in the 240's.Once things start to settle down I will be in the gym full force and back on the gear.The gym is definetly one place I can go and escape my problems, I know you have all been there.Its my sanctuary.

I apologize to all those who emailed me or PMed me without a response.I was of no mind to keep in touch.But if you need to get a hold of,Im here.Thanks brothers,looking forward to being part of the community again.....

kandaandm · Mar 2, 2005

nice to see you here again...stay strong

BIGKIWI · Mar 2, 2005

Hi bro very sorry to hear all that news, but good to see you coming out of it now

I can totally relate to you how things can totally turn bad in no time at all. Best wished to you and your family

kiwi

Gone1 · Mar 2, 2005

Hang in there my bald brother...

Bro -

Hate to hear all that bad news bro. PLEASE just hang in there man, dont give up no matter what. Your dad needs you to be strong for him - that alone is good enough reason to stick it out.
Sorry to hear about your grandmother... May God bless her. JJ will say a special NC prayer for your dad and granny - God is always here for ya, even when you think not.
Also - hate to hear the bad news about your girl leaving ya... but hey man, you are "The man' so just pick up the peices and find you another chickadee and just learn from the past mistakes... the grass isnt always greener on the other side and most of the time you dont realize how important someone is until there gone.
God bless ya bro - if there is anything i can do, its done.
JJ Insane1

Vander_V · Mar 2, 2005

I wish u the best God Bless and glad to see you made it out of the dark ,, i suffered from severe depression after i lost my big brother , i know how things may seem now but in the end there really is a reason and meaning for such times as these , peace and keep yo head up .

MikeS · Mar 2, 2005

Good to see you back bro. Your weights are always your salvation through tough times (at least for me it is)-keeps you sane through the toughest times. Hang in there big man, you have buddies here always.

mike man · Mar 2, 2005

Whoa.

That's some very heavy stuff BN. Keep strong bro like I know you can. All things happen for a reason even if they sometimes feel injust.
I'll be saying some prayers for you and your family bud.

Conan21 · Mar 2, 2005

Sorry to hear bro

thats alot to swollow all at once. try to learn from your mistakes and spend as much time with Dad as you can. Try to remain somewhat postive about things if you can.

hope everything works out for u man

BigBoyJ · Mar 2, 2005

I've been there, man. I know you and I had our problems, but just so you know, I never once would've ever wished any harm to you. You've always been a good guy in my eyes. Hell, one reason we had our disagreements is probably because we're too damned much alike. Neither one of us will bend, so eventually something breaks. We were friends for years, BN and whatever stupid shit happened with us more recently is all done and over with as far as I'm concerned.

Right now, you're dealing with several of the hardest things there are to deal with in life. And you're dealing with them all at the same time. A little over a year ago, I was in a simular situation. My WHOLE life got completely flipped upside down and I thought for sure I was fucked for good. I really didn't want to live. Thank's to help from my family and a wonderful woman I was blessed enough to find, things are better than they've ever been for me.

Be strong, man. These hard times pass. You learn from them and become a better person for them. God won't give you a challenge that you're not strong enough to handle. And when you do make it through, you will see that there is still a lot to be happy about.

Never let the bad things in life take you down. Always remember that there is a reason you're dealing with this. The scars will remain, but the good times will come again.

If there is anything I could possibly do to help out, let me know. Remember, I never hold a grudge

.

Mr.Huge · Mar 2, 2005

Glad to have you back with us BN

my prayers are with your father and family. If you need anything don;t hesitate to ask were all here for ya brother. You have been missed its good to see you around again.

Mr.Huge

rAJJIN · Mar 2, 2005

BN

Glad to see you posting Buddy.
I knew you were having some problems Biggs But I didnt realize is was so much

Seems Like when shit goes sour It happens all at once.
Just a test of charactor bro And your One of the Best Ive met!
Be strong man and things can only get better, Im here if you need me as well.

BTW,
JUST..sent you an email before I seen this.

Sandblaster · Mar 2, 2005

BN,

Hang tough brother. Life can give you too much at times, most of us have been there in one form or another. In my experience, those times made me realize what was truly important, not the 20 inch arms, not the hot women, etc...it is about family and friends. It's sad, but it takes adversity to cause us to realize the truly important things.

You are a tough SOB, and you will make it through...I have no doubt.

"Aus der Kriegsschule des Lebens. Was mich nicht umbringt, macht mich stärker."

SB

Iabadman · Mar 2, 2005

Hey bro ......As you know , I have nothing but the upmost respect for you . I am very sorry to hear of all that you have been enduring as of late .Believe me , I can relate . The last year and half was the hardest of my life . It was my test and I almost decided to quit as well . Hang in there ....you need anything get a hold of me Ok ? I do care about you ....no B.S. ......we are brothers on this board !!!! Stay in touch !

massmonster32 · Mar 2, 2005

Good to see you again man. Glad you are ok hang in their things can only get better for ya. Take care and dont be such a stranger. MM

totalrecall54 · Mar 2, 2005

welcome back

welcome back BN ! keep your head up... our prayers for you and your family thru times like this.

good to see ya kid!

Maverick · Mar 2, 2005

Damn buddy, I am sorry to hear of your problems, but your a survivor and thats all that matters. We are all here for ya bro if you need anything and do not be afraid to drop me or anybody else an e-mail bro.

Maverick

G.E.R.M · Mar 2, 2005

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keep your chin up stinkypants.

xcelbeyond · Mar 2, 2005

Glad to see that you are taking everything in stride. Adversity sucks - that which doesn't kill us only makes us stronger.

We all have weaknesses, but toughness is also imbedded in our souls. Just seek out the toughness to overcome the weakness and you'll get through a better person.

drgoodbody · Mar 2, 2005

Good to see you back BN. You're a fighter thru and thru, so I never would have doubted that you'd hang tough and make it. Glad to hear that the darkest days are behind you and wish nothing but the best for you and your family in the future.

DrG

Tom · Mar 2, 2005

Hey BN

So sorry to hear about your problems. You will get through this and be stronger for it. Keep getting into the gym as it is a great stress buster. Glad to see you back and I'll keep you and your dad in my thoughts.

Tom