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I've been dating this girl since mid-july. Met online, talked for hours on the phone each night, then finally met. It was about an hour-long drive but we met up quite a bit for the first month. After that I moved to a town nearby where she lived (not to be by her.. but because I wanted out of my current town because there were no jobs or interesting people)
After a couple more months she moved in with me and commuted to work and back each day, about 40 minutes. She hated driving but did it every day until now. Overall we got along great, like really really good friends. I met her mom, who lived in texas, several times. I became fairly close to her dad, he even gave me a job at the bar he owned. Bought me stuff for christmas, took us out to eat all the time, joked about sex and shit right in front of her.. it was great. We did everything together, all the time and never really got sick of each other. She couldn't go places alone because she has anxiety, so I was with her all the time, and we worked at the same place (though at different times, never together thank god.) We were each other's lives. And I was happy with that. A lot of shit I thought would eventually change as we're both young.
The sex was amazing until recently it just stopped. We started arguing more.. we've argued before and almost broke up, but she kept crawling back saying shes sorry.. even to the point of hurting herself after I was really serious about it. I did all that I could for her. She called me some pretty nasty names and said some mean shit. I thought she was bi-polar. In fact I still might think she is. I would like to get her help for that but she won't have anything to do with it.
Anyway, it snowed big time here last weekend, and before she left for work we had a huge argument. She stayed at her dad's house because she had to work a few days in a row and couldn't drive in the weather we had. I called, texted her, etc and she was very short and angry with me. Went out drinking with a few guys, then went back to her dad's. The next time I talked to her, she said she enjoyed her time away from me and didn't miss me at all. The next day she wanted to get back together but thought it was a really bad idea because we've been arguing a lot lately. Told me to go home because she was going to lose it and start crying. The next day I told her I'd be willing to move to her hometown where she works so she won't be nearly as stressed, because she works 60 hours per week and has to drive home, sleep. wake up, and do it all over agin. I told her I'd be stressed too if that was my routine. She gave me a big hug, started crying, said she loves me and we'd work this out and said we'd discuss the specifics the next day at lunch(today).
I went out to lunch with her and started talking about it, what we could do, and she was back again to thinking that we don't need to be together. I tried talking to her but she wouldn't listen and wanted me to go home.
She's coming back on Thursday night to stay, and she's moving all of her stuff on Friday. I suggested being together but only seeing each other a few days a week, as a bit of a break. She originally thought it was a good idea (that night we made up), but now again doesn't think so.
I love her a lot, obviously and I really think it's worth all the trouble I'm going through. I can hope and pray all that I can, but if she doesn't want to do it, and I somehow convince her to try, it won't be good.
Now I'm looking at the prospect of having an EMPTY 2 bedroom apartment with no job, no money, no friends (i hated the people at the bar, and all my friends back home have gone or changed too much), with 4 months left on my lease, can't afford to go to the gym, can't afford to eat, and I can't afford next month's rent. I've called friends, and only 1 cared to listen. I've been stuck by myself in an apartment (there's nowhere to go in this town to meet people) for about a week straight now. Eating, going on the computer, playing video games, and sleeping.. all by myself, for days straight. And yes, I've applied everywhere that's hiring and nobody has called me back. Not one.
For the first time in my life, I'm very very scared about my situation
After a couple more months she moved in with me and commuted to work and back each day, about 40 minutes. She hated driving but did it every day until now. Overall we got along great, like really really good friends. I met her mom, who lived in texas, several times. I became fairly close to her dad, he even gave me a job at the bar he owned. Bought me stuff for christmas, took us out to eat all the time, joked about sex and shit right in front of her.. it was great. We did everything together, all the time and never really got sick of each other. She couldn't go places alone because she has anxiety, so I was with her all the time, and we worked at the same place (though at different times, never together thank god.) We were each other's lives. And I was happy with that. A lot of shit I thought would eventually change as we're both young.
The sex was amazing until recently it just stopped. We started arguing more.. we've argued before and almost broke up, but she kept crawling back saying shes sorry.. even to the point of hurting herself after I was really serious about it. I did all that I could for her. She called me some pretty nasty names and said some mean shit. I thought she was bi-polar. In fact I still might think she is. I would like to get her help for that but she won't have anything to do with it.
Anyway, it snowed big time here last weekend, and before she left for work we had a huge argument. She stayed at her dad's house because she had to work a few days in a row and couldn't drive in the weather we had. I called, texted her, etc and she was very short and angry with me. Went out drinking with a few guys, then went back to her dad's. The next time I talked to her, she said she enjoyed her time away from me and didn't miss me at all. The next day she wanted to get back together but thought it was a really bad idea because we've been arguing a lot lately. Told me to go home because she was going to lose it and start crying. The next day I told her I'd be willing to move to her hometown where she works so she won't be nearly as stressed, because she works 60 hours per week and has to drive home, sleep. wake up, and do it all over agin. I told her I'd be stressed too if that was my routine. She gave me a big hug, started crying, said she loves me and we'd work this out and said we'd discuss the specifics the next day at lunch(today).
I went out to lunch with her and started talking about it, what we could do, and she was back again to thinking that we don't need to be together. I tried talking to her but she wouldn't listen and wanted me to go home.
She's coming back on Thursday night to stay, and she's moving all of her stuff on Friday. I suggested being together but only seeing each other a few days a week, as a bit of a break. She originally thought it was a good idea (that night we made up), but now again doesn't think so.
I love her a lot, obviously and I really think it's worth all the trouble I'm going through. I can hope and pray all that I can, but if she doesn't want to do it, and I somehow convince her to try, it won't be good.
Now I'm looking at the prospect of having an EMPTY 2 bedroom apartment with no job, no money, no friends (i hated the people at the bar, and all my friends back home have gone or changed too much), with 4 months left on my lease, can't afford to go to the gym, can't afford to eat, and I can't afford next month's rent. I've called friends, and only 1 cared to listen. I've been stuck by myself in an apartment (there's nowhere to go in this town to meet people) for about a week straight now. Eating, going on the computer, playing video games, and sleeping.. all by myself, for days straight. And yes, I've applied everywhere that's hiring and nobody has called me back. Not one.
For the first time in my life, I'm very very scared about my situation
) jk but umm i prolly def would haha
