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well its that time of year again , feelings are all over the place , happy for what I have as far as family and friends , job and all that but , this time of year just pisses me off to the point I just want to say fuck it , back story 15 plus yrs ago my father thought it was a good idea to try crack and it fucked my family and my world up, he has kicked that shit but every year my birthday and christmas are ruined , he was too high on that shit , so he missed my bday and was high on christmas , guys i am 41yrs old and I hate christmas and my birthday because of this , what can I do ???? I try to block it out but it just comes back...... I have a 6yr daughter that I love with all my heart and a great wife 5 dogs, 3 cats and a damn fish lol, i love my life but find myself in a slump because of hat happened 15 plus years ago, My dad and I still talk and he knows how bad it messed me up but it is all I can think about.... the only way for me to vent is through the weights and during christmas it just is too much and my workouts suffer ????????????????:banghead::banghead::banghead: