been there more times than i care to remember. depression runs rampant thru out both sides of my family and ashamed to say so do suicides.
i have to agree with the above guys, find someone you can talk to bro, a friend, GF, Dr. also, like guys told me not to long ago, this board is always here for supporting each other
now as far as test goes, i seem to do alot better when I am on Test, the depression actually seems to lower to an extent. i have actually read an article on WebMD about men who use anti-depressants and see no results from the meds, but when Test is added, the med kicks up. I believe it was like 90% of the men started feeling better with the higher levels of T and the anti-depressants. ( its been awhile since i read it, so i may be wrong as far as #)
maybe it's just becuz the Test makes guy's lil friend stick up and thats enuff to cheer us up hehe.
but again the most important thing is talking. keeping stuff to yourself just eats away at you. shit, sometimes i feel like i have enuff shit on my mind to full an entire book, and just feels good to let it out to someone that'll listen.
if ya need to chat, just PM or email. i'm not on as much due to work, but that should be changing in the coming months. (hopfully, ::crosses fingers:
JW