Apology To MMAGORILLA And Toopoo

[littlemack]

Just want to send out an apology to MMAGORILLA And Toopoo for some things I said in MMAGORILLA's counseling thread. Sorry to hear about what your going through buddy. Those things are never fun. I haven't been around the board in a couple of weeks and I've really been going through a real rough time with some personal issues and some recent friendships and a relationship that was dissolved. Still haven't gotten over my two year ex who just told me this weekend that she doesn't want me to see her little girl...who was such a huge part of my life. Plus my Dad is having surgery on July 11th which will leave his face somewhat disfigured as they're removing a section of his jaw and the road to recovery will be a long process for him. I've isolated myself from my family, these friends I recently made have decided to chose my two month ex-gf over me, and I'm having a tough time dealing with being alone. You guys will just have to excuse me as I may be gone for a while from the board. Not that I don't love all my PM bro's and sisters. I've just been down a real bad road with heavy drinking every night at bars by myself for the past two weeks, in and out of strip clubs, not eating, not training, and just in a real world of hurt. I really want to thank two people in paticular though... My good friend Phil Hernon here who's been nothing but a great friend to me and of course great trainer...but we all know that already. Sorry buddy. I'm trying. Just know...that...I'm trying.. Ok buddy. I also want to thank Macey Leigh who's friends with some of you here... Toopoo, BBD21, Buffbeca. She and I are going through some similar stuff right now...and she calls a lot to checkup on me... Those are two...really good people.
So just bare with me for a while.... I'm trying... I may not have all the answers, or the tools to help me, but I'm going to see if maybe I can find something else to cope with things...besides the booz...and the dancers...oh god...how I love the dancers.....

 

[tonka]

Sorry to hear all that you are going through lilttlemack...i hope everything works out for the better for you buddy..take care

 

[oldfella]

Hey LM, You know we all have troubles to deal with from time to time. You know it's all good here at PM. We fuck up and say some shit we really don't mean (I'm guilty too) and then take it back. At least as brothers and sisters here we own up to them and make amends. I can't speak for the others but you are a good bro here and have a good heart. That is what matters in the long run. So pull your socks up pal and get on with it! There's growing to do and shows to win. Put all the haters in your life on the back burner. They are the losers in the end. Life is good LM and also too short to have hate and negative people around. People are free to choose the path they walk, these paths do not always intersect with our own. Now go train or something will ya! It's all good Littlemack.

 

[km2000]

sounds like things are pretty ruff right now, i am sorry to hear about your situation oldfella. life is hard to deal with at times, i am young and probably have a lot of harships in my future but i have endured some in my past as well... keep your head up, life has a way of evening everythng out, the ying yang, i would try to look for the good in your life right now(as hard as it may seem).... but i will bet there is something you can find! i really enjoy your posts, you are very positive and have a great wealth of knowledge and experience that you share here on a regular basis, your sense of humor is class act!... anyway i'll keep you in my prayers and i hope you pull through this...

take care friend....

 

[Phidias]

Know these song lyrics Mack? Feeling like a little kid, looking like a true survivor... they are from Elton John's I'm still standing. Whenever I feel low listening to the cd do inmensely for my mood, kinda "don't give up son, stay positive, always!" You should download it... cheaper than a beer

Another one for motivation By my all-time favorite artist Queen's leader Freddy Mercury. Taken from We are the Champions.

I've paid my dues
Time after time
I've done my sentence
But committed no crime
And bad mistakes
I've made a few
and I've had my share of sand
Kicked in my face
But I've come through
And I need to go on and on and on and on


If you notice, both Mercury and John are gay... maybe is it the key to get rid of sadness... hahaha


Hang in there Mack, life sometimes sucks but it's well worth it in the end.

 

[MMAGorilla]

LM, I'm really sorry to hear about whats been going on in your life. No worries here, like oldfella said, you gotta good heart bro! Stay strong and don't forget about the people who love you and support you. I hear you on the dancers but stay focussed on the things that make you stronger instead of making you weaker.

 

[PHIL HERNON]

MACK

MODERATION!!! SAY IT, MO D E R A T I O N. YOU CAN SPEND ALL YOUR HARD EARNED CASH ON SOME FEMALE WHO ONLY TALKS TO YOU BECAUSE OF YOUR MONEY THAT YOU FEED TO HER TO PRETEND THAT SHE CARES ABOUT YOU AND STILL TRAIN HARD.

 

[nosmas]

We fuck up and say some shit we really don't mean (I'm guilty too) and then take it back.

I am also guilty. I have the privilege of being deleted MOST of the time however. Thank god for the mods watching out!

 

[Iabadman]

Mack ......although I haven't been a big contirbuter since you have been abroad. I have followed you and your trials /tribulations from day one. You are a good person you just need to identify a few things first [like I said bbers like to go from A to Z and skip the in between stuff] If you get a chance I left a rant in the thread that Bald nazi has going in the counseling section of this board . Read it....... think about it .......read it again ......then if you like pm me .......i would be willing to offer support during this rough time as well [ note I used own part and still am the GM of a strip club for aliving ..lol....so even if you want to ask insights or have questions in that world I would be happy building a bridge between you and I using that route if that is what it takes ] I have endured the roughest 4yrs of my life ......unbelievable shit ....... you can go and read some of my past posts if you wish........but you know what ," I am still standing " like me and Phidalis's man Elton John sayes.........I am facing my fears and hurt , fixing what is broken instead of hiding from it like most [ with sex , toys, relationships, money , drugs , or alcohol] Time to step up bro ...........so if you get time go read that post and maybe alittle of what I have been going through [ go back aways if you have the time] I hurt just like you , but I am dealing with it different. At one time ,I lost my passion for life and almost said fuck it and ended my life . I wouldn't cried out to anyone I knew in real life beyond this board........And you know what ? After I posted ,30 people ,many I didnt know came to my aide and just made me worth like that it was still worth it and that there were still good people left in the world .........So bro , " I am playing forward" ,I would hate to have you not know that some guy out in cali does give a fuck and whats to help you ...........time to dig deep ......no excuses just do it !!!

 

[littlemack]

MODERATION!!! SAY IT, MO D E R A T I O N. YOU CAN SPEND ALL YOUR HARD EARNED CASH ON SOME FEMALE WHO ONLY TALKS TO YOU BECAUSE OF YOUR MONEY THAT YOU FEED TO HER TO PRETEND THAT SHE CARES ABOUT YOU AND STILL TRAIN HARD.

ahhahahahahaha... You always make me laugh man. I will try my best buddy. Its ok to buy a 20 something girlfriend right? hahahahaha... Moderation. I will repeat that tonight... "Maybe I should just have 2 or 3 lap dances instead of 6 or 8? One or two beers instead of 10 or 12...." hehehe... I gotcha
I think I may need a break from the nightlife though. Its just really caught up to me so I stayed in last night and hit the gym early this morning. oh....and loading up on the liver aid now... hahahahaha....

Thank you all friends...and I'll try to be a little more respectful from now on everyone. Phidias. I'll go download that music right away! Thanks!

 

[littlemack]

Mack ......although I haven't been a big contirbuter since you have been abroad. I have followed you and your trials /tribulations from day one. You are a good person you just need to identify a few things first [like I said bbers like to go from A to Z and skip the in between stuff] If you get a chance I left a rant in the thread that Bald nazi has going in the counseling section of this board . Read it....... think about it .......read it again ......then if you like pm me .......i would be willing to offer support during this rough time as well [ note I used own part and still am the GM of a strip club for aliving ..lol....so even if you want to ask insights or have questions in that world I would be happy building a bridge between you and I using that route if that is what it takes ] I have endured the roughest 4yrs of my life ......unbelievable shit ....... you can go and read some of my past posts if you wish........but you know what ," I am still standing " like me and Phidalis's man Elton John sayes.........I am facing my fears and hurt , fixing what is broken instead of hiding from it like most [ with sex , toys, relationships, money , drugs , or alcohol] Time to step up bro ...........so if you get time go read that post and maybe alittle of what I have been going through [ go back aways if you have the time] I hurt just like you , but I am dealing with it different. At one time ,I lost and almost said fuck it and ended my life . I wouldn't cried out to anyone I knew in real life beyond this board........And you what ? After I posted ,30 people many I didnt know came to my aide and just made me worth like that it was still worth it and that there were still good people left in the world .........So bro , " I am playing forward" ,I would hate to have you not know that some guy out in cali does give a fuck and whats to help you ...........time to dig deep ......no excuses just do it !!!

Heading over there now. Thanks!

 

[littlemack]

LM, I'm really sorry to hear about whats been going on in your life. No worries here, like oldfella said, you gotta good heart bro! Stay strong and don't forget about the people who love you and support you. I hear you on the dancers but stay focussed on the things that make you stronger instead of making you weaker.

Thanks man. Real sorry about what I said in there. Oh man...the women! Without a doubt...My single biggest weakness right now!

 

[rmtt]

LittleMack...you got a PM.

 

[thebrick]

MODERATION!!! SAY IT, MO D E R A T I O N. YOU CAN SPEND ALL YOUR HARD EARNED CASH ON SOME FEMALE WHO ONLY TALKS TO YOU BECAUSE OF YOUR MONEY THAT YOU FEED TO HER TO PRETEND THAT SHE CARES ABOUT YOU AND STILL TRAIN HARD.

LMAO