Judge me.

[VNV]

I never had a drop of alcohol until my 21st birthday. During the last two years of college, I drank a couple times a week and blacked out at least twice a month.

I also smoked weed almost everyday during the last two years of college, and on-and-off after college (a couple weeks a month).

I've used cocaine about four or five times, tried mushrooms thrice, and gotten messed up on DXM (cough medicine) a couple times.

I started smoking cigarettes on my 19ths birthday and haven't stopped since (25 now). When I don't have cigarettes, I buy chewing tobacco.

When I'm bored and need to calm down, I buy a 1/5th of alcohol and drink half of it. That's probably three times a month.

I've done five or six cycles of gear since I turned 22.

Am I a drug addict?

 

[HawaiiMuscle]

I was in the same boat. Live a very militant life, until my old man passed away when I was 17. I went crazy. When I got into college, I must of tried every pharm and street drug their was. I completely understand where your coming from.
I don't think your a drug addict. If your employed, live well, have healthy happy family, i wouldn't call what you have an addiction. If your an addict, it (drug of choice) becomes the sole purpose of your life, the reason for living.
About your current problems with alcohol, I think a few drinks a month is not all that bad, a 5th of liquour is like 5 shots...thats not alcoholism. My dad was an alcoholic, try a 5th+ (and smoked a pack) everyday...then you got a problem, esp if it starts effecting your social life and relationships with your family.
Don't preceive my messege wrong, I not saying it ok to do what you did or are doing now...but who am I to judge. I will end on this note...you have an addictive personality, your aware of this, so becareful before any leisurely stuff becomes a problem.

 

[notsobig32]

By the textbook definition, yyeayh you are an addict. You use different mind altering substances to deal with life as it presents itself. Do i believe that you are a raging drug addict, nah. I wasn';t either though, until i got into coke and then in a matter of two years, everything went donwhill.

There are no guarantees that it will ever get that bad for you but just watch out for warning sins like increasing frequency etc. If any of those compounds start interfering withh your daily routine, you will know that it is time to get help.

BTW i am an addict and that is definitely how it started out for me and i had never really tried any drugs until i was somewhere around 29. So just be safe.

 

[sizeon]

started smokin herb and drinking at 14, tried everthing in the book in high shool, started selling weed, dro, x, cocaine in high shool, now i know its dangerous to sell and stupid, just occasionly smoke and drink, and of course build muscle now

 

[Gators]

I'm a addict and alcoholic (drug free for over 20 yrs, going on 3 mths sober), and i can tell you that you are playing with fire. Like NSB said, you're using to cope, not good Bro. IMO, it's not a question of if, it's when you have real issues with it if you continue the path you're on. It's hard to understand how cunning, powerful, and baffling alcohol is until you wind up in a death struggle with it, shit is wicked Bro. From what little i've read from you, i'd say you have a very addictive personality, so your chances of becoming a full blown alcoholic or junkie is very high.

 

[EVERLAST]

personal call...

everyone has to walk their own path.
much as we'd like to help others,
we all must still walk our own path.
for you maybe lose the tobacco, alcohol and other recreational drugs.
Take a break and see how you feel.
For me personally a little wine a couple nights a week is ok.
One glass maybe two,
but this is part of a thing me and sassy do together...
to connect.shut out the damn world.
so its not the focus of the thing...she is.
(So get a good woman. then maybe a little wine)
when your focus is on the drug or the bet or the next hit or the next toke
then you have a problem.
dopamine is released in the brain during sex, alcohol use, risk behaviors like sky diving and the unlikely and magical state of suspended disbelief known as love. We are just wired up that way.
So get some sex with someone you love. then get buzzed just a little.
Its the new dopamine stacker

But seriously man.
Seek to find the balance in life.

some addictions are good
(exercise and diet, sex with a good partner... in and out of bed)

Others you should terminate with extreme predjudice.
(destructive behaviors that you want to stop but fail to, sex with the wrong people, hanging out with destructive personality types too)

Damn dude. thats all the stuff I like.

 

[thebrick]

The way I see it…

The fact that you are asking this question is a signal to me that on some level it bothers you. What does that say?

 

[alecaf]

started smokin herb and drinking at 14, tried everthing in the book in high shool, started selling weed, dro, x, cocaine in high shool, now i know its dangerous to sell and stupid, just occasionly smoke and drink, and of course build muscle now

wow, you're cool bro. you should write a book on how you are shredded at 240lbs and sell drugs.

 

[Soulstealer]

I've done alot of drugs in my life, messed up my life too, now I just drink occasionally and stuff... the only thing on that list I would concern myself with -everyone experiments- is the alcohol, you're using it as a coping mechanism and thats no good.... Also cig's are horrible for you lol

 

[knucklehed]

+!

everyone has to walk their own path.
much as we'd like to help others,
we all must still walk our own path.
for you maybe lose the tobacco, alcohol and other recreational drugs.
Take a break and see how you feel.
For me personally a little wine a couple nights a week is ok.
One glass maybe two,
but this is part of a thing me and sassy do together...
to connect.shut out the damn world.
so its not the focus of the thing...she is.
(So get a good woman. then maybe a little wine)
when your focus is on the drug or the bet or the next hit or the next toke
then you have a problem.
dopamine is released in the brain during sex, alcohol use, risk behaviors like sky diving and the unlikely and magical state of suspended disbelief known as love. We are just wired up that way.
So get some sex with someone you love. then get buzzed just a little.
Its the new dopamine stacker

But seriously man.
Seek to find the balance in life.

some addictions are good
(exercise and diet, sex with a good partner... in and out of bed)

Others you should terminate with extreme predjudice.
(destructive behaviors that you want to stop but fail to, sex with the wrong people, hanging out with destructive personality types too)

Damn dude. thats all the stuff I like.

Good post...
I agree; we all have our addictions. The trick is to stick to the positive/healthy ones and leave the rest behind. I had myshare of time with many recs/alchol, even chewed tabacco for years. Now older and wiser, I stick to training, sex and occasional glass of wine with the wife.
Life is good

 

[njpooldude]

im also an addict.. always will be... when u can no longer function without a drug or drink you will be an addict... right now id say your on the addict bus, headin to the hell hotel.... at any chance you can still get off the bus, walk home and NEVER look back. Right now you have a choice.. once your addicted that choice is almost gone... you no longer run yourself.. the drugs or drinks do. The disease of addiction runs your life, your thoughts and your actions...

LIke Thebrick said.. it must worry you to osme level which is why u posted this thread.. and thats a good thing... you have an inner voice trying to reachout.. listen to it.. its your sole.. ( or your inner god) whatever u wanna call it... telling you enough is enough

hit an AA meeting man.. alot of cool older cats in there.. im your age but when it comes to meetings i like being aroud older ppl who are more mature and willing to help.... you wont be sorry u went... u may actually feel great when u leave. just tell someone you dont think your an addict yet, but u know your heading down the wrong path

good luck bro... god is good man

 

[njpooldude]

everyone has to walk their own path.
much as we'd like to help others,
we all must still walk our own path.
for you maybe lose the tobacco, alcohol and other recreational drugs.
Take a break and see how you feel.
For me personally a little wine a couple nights a week is ok.
One glass maybe two,
but this is part of a thing me and sassy do together...
to connect.shut out the damn world.
so its not the focus of the thing...she is.
(So get a good woman. then maybe a little wine)
when your focus is on the drug or the bet or the next hit or the next toke
then you have a problem.
dopamine is released in the brain during sex, alcohol use, risk behaviors like sky diving and the unlikely and magical state of suspended disbelief known as love. We are just wired up that way.
So get some sex with someone you love. then get buzzed just a little.
Its the new dopamine stacker

But seriously man.
Seek to find the balance in life.

some addictions are good
(exercise and diet, sex with a good partner... in and out of bed)

Others you should terminate with extreme predjudice.
(destructive behaviors that you want to stop but fail to, sex with the wrong people, hanging out with destructive personality types too)

Damn dude. thats all the stuff I like.

Great post everlast!

 

[derb83]

started smokin herb and drinking at 14, tried everthing in the book in high shool, started selling weed, dro, x, cocaine in high shool, now i know its dangerous to sell and stupid, just occasionly smoke and drink, and of course build muscle now

I thought dro was a kind of weed

 

[mrsoul]

I never had a drop of alcohol until my 21st birthday. During the last two years of college, I drank a couple times a week and blacked out at least twice a month.

I also smoked weed almost everyday during the last two years of college, and on-and-off after college (a couple weeks a month).

I've used cocaine about four or five times, tried mushrooms thrice, and gotten messed up on DXM (cough medicine) a couple times.

I started smoking cigarettes on my 19ths birthday and haven't stopped since (25 now). When I don't have cigarettes, I buy chewing tobacco.

When I'm bored and need to calm down, I buy a 1/5th of alcohol and drink half of it. That's probably three times a month.

I've done five or six cycles of gear since I turned 22.

Am I a drug addict?

you are the only one that can answer that, but most normal people dont ever feel the need to ask. i am an alcoholis/addict, sober since 3/23/01. the amounts you take or the frequency with which you use has nothing to do with being an addict. it is what happens when you start using or drinking that is the indication of whether or not you are. i know recovering alcoholics that only drank once or twice a month, but after the first drink they had little or no control over how much they would drink. alcoholism is an allergy, which means that once i place alcohol in my body, something different happens to me that does not happen to normal drinkers. my body begins to crave more and i will have little to no control over how much i drink. it does not mean i have to get drunk every time i drink, my tolerance varied depending on my health so sometimes a 6 pack was plenty, but most of the time i would drink until i was stopped, passed out, or out of money. if you are unsure, look up your local narcotica anonymous meeting and go to a meeting. if your main problem is alcohol, try an aa meeting as well and see where you fit in best.