So- I’m a longtime member here and used to post under SlickNYC. Been using gear since I was 18 and I’m now 51 years old. For many, many years I’ve used pretty heavy doses ( 1000mg + of test 100mg tren/day ) was a common cycle for me up until a few years ago. I have been diagnosed anxiety/depression that runs in my family with both my father and sister being hospitalized multiple times. They are both on lithium and other meds and are unable to function or hold a job without them. Myself, on the other hand am able to function at my job but I have severe social anxiety that prevents me from living a healthy life. The steroids definitely haven’t helped and anytime I’ve tried to go off the gear I woukd be great for about 6 weeks and then crash abd end up basically “needing” the gear.
The reason I’m getting into this is to give you guys some background as to why I’m in this situation. Firstly, my gear use has given me high blood prsssure and gods knows have done what other damage. Secondly, my anxiety has prevented me from getting myself checked out to the extent of even refusing to get simple routine bloodwork. I know it sounds stupid and irresponsible and I just can’t explain this. I get super worked up thinking I’m gonna get bad news so I refuse to go get checked. STUPID.
Anyways, I had to go to the urgent care for Covid and they routinely checked my BP and it was sky high (175/110). I checked it a few times at home over the next few days and it averaged about 150/95. I had to find a PCP to get a Dr note for my job believe it or not- so I had an appt last Friday and the nurse checked my BP And it was 171/111. She ran and told the doc Who came in and asked me some questions. He took it again with the old school machine and said it was 150/90. He said not horrible but still high obviously. He gave me medication for the BP and had me do bloodwork in the next room because he was concerned about my heart rate which was like 110. It’s been 90-95 resting for the past week.
Anyways, my stress is that I’ve felt like shit for a long time and do have a few signs of kidney disease. I have bubbles in my urine- (not foam suds like a beer) but tons of bubble. Also cramp up like crazy all over which indicates an electrolyte imbalance. That plus the fact I haven’t had bloods done in 8 years and my elevated blood pressure likely caused some damage. I’m totally freaking out.
The reason I’m even writing this is that if there is anyone out there who is like me- I hope they choose to At least get regular bloods and examinations. I would like to hear from anyone else who suffers from anxiety/depression and how they felt the steroids affected them. Sorry for the rant guys and thanks to anyone who gets this far reading lol.
The reason I’m getting into this is to give you guys some background as to why I’m in this situation. Firstly, my gear use has given me high blood prsssure and gods knows have done what other damage. Secondly, my anxiety has prevented me from getting myself checked out to the extent of even refusing to get simple routine bloodwork. I know it sounds stupid and irresponsible and I just can’t explain this. I get super worked up thinking I’m gonna get bad news so I refuse to go get checked. STUPID.
Anyways, I had to go to the urgent care for Covid and they routinely checked my BP and it was sky high (175/110). I checked it a few times at home over the next few days and it averaged about 150/95. I had to find a PCP to get a Dr note for my job believe it or not- so I had an appt last Friday and the nurse checked my BP And it was 171/111. She ran and told the doc Who came in and asked me some questions. He took it again with the old school machine and said it was 150/90. He said not horrible but still high obviously. He gave me medication for the BP and had me do bloodwork in the next room because he was concerned about my heart rate which was like 110. It’s been 90-95 resting for the past week.
Anyways, my stress is that I’ve felt like shit for a long time and do have a few signs of kidney disease. I have bubbles in my urine- (not foam suds like a beer) but tons of bubble. Also cramp up like crazy all over which indicates an electrolyte imbalance. That plus the fact I haven’t had bloods done in 8 years and my elevated blood pressure likely caused some damage. I’m totally freaking out.
The reason I’m even writing this is that if there is anyone out there who is like me- I hope they choose to At least get regular bloods and examinations. I would like to hear from anyone else who suffers from anxiety/depression and how they felt the steroids affected them. Sorry for the rant guys and thanks to anyone who gets this far reading lol.