my girlfriend died ...

[mike1107]

my girlfriend died 2 weeks ago
she decided it was time for her to leave this earth
we just had an argument, she tried to call me a few minutes after and I didn't ehar my phone

I was going to her home to talk to her when I saw I had message .. she was telling me life without me sucks and she had to die ..

I came to her house and found her dead

I have no more strength, lost a lot of weight
she was the woman of my life
nobody excepted me felt she didn't feel good inside .. she looked full of energy but had a bad feeling in her and I was the only one who knew and felt it

his parents didn't know it and they think I'm responsible of everything
I'm into the worst days of my life
I don't know what I'm gonna do without her
I know she had tht need to die in her ... and I've to accpet that it'd have happened one day or another ... but FUCK I MISS HER SO MUCH

I've been a member here since a long time, sometimes often here, sometimes less but I feel like in a group of friends that's why I need to share with you ....

I don't even want that shit would happen to a person , even the person I hate the most
I MISS HER

I'll have to go back to the gym and start training again, she wouldn't have wanted that I stop ... but the gym is where we met and where we sepnt a lot of time training together, laughing, sometimes arguing ...
she was my princess and as a tough person I don' t think she could feel how much I loved her and still love her now
our realtion was full of pasion and we spent a lot of time arguing but 1 second of hapiness together could make us forget everything
we started talking about having a baby the next year ...

needed to share with you my friends ... it hurts so bad ...

 

[MikeS]

Man I dont know what to say except Im so sorry and that is heartbreaking.
You will find some solice and recovery in the gym. When my Mom passed, that and my ex-wifes support were instrumental.
You have family here with you being a long standing member-I hope we can help. God bless you bro.

 

[Dad]

I'm SO sorry!

I'm really sorry to hear this - it must be very hard, and I can't imagine how you feel.

Hope everything is works out, and be good to yourself! I just don't know what else to say...

 

[N_iraq]

Be Strong man

i hope that you find the strength to endure.

 

[Big Bapper]

my girlfriend died 2 weeks ago
she decided it was time for her to leave this earth
we just had an argument, she tried to call me a few minutes after and I didn't ehar my phone

I was going to her home to talk to her when I saw I had message .. she was telling me life without me sucks and she had to die ..

I came to her house and found her dead

I have no more strength, lost a lot of weight
she was the woman of my life
nobody excepted me felt she didn't feel good inside .. she looked full of energy but had a bad feeling in her and I was the only one who knew and felt it

his parents didn't know it and they think I'm responsible of everything
I'm into the worst days of my life
I don't know what I'm gonna do without her
I know she had tht need to die in her ... and I've to accpet that it'd have happened one day or another ... but FUCK I MISS HER SO MUCH

I've been a member here since a long time, sometimes often here, sometimes less but I feel like in a group of friends that's why I need to share with you ....

I don't even want that shit would happen to a person , even the person I hate the most
I MISS HER

I'll have to go back to the gym and start training again, she wouldn't have wanted that I stop ... but the gym is where we met and where we sepnt a lot of time training together, laughing, sometimes arguing ...
she was my princess and as a tough person I don' t think she could feel how much I loved her and still love her now
our realtion was full of pasion and we spent a lot of time arguing but 1 second of hapiness together could make us forget everything
we started talking about having a baby the next year ...

needed to share with you my friends ... it hurts so bad ...

I dont know what to say Bro, I am so sorry and feel for you...........My girl has said to me several times that she could not live without me, but somthing like this makes you think........I belive your girl is somewere special now and at peace and you will meet her again someday.............Keep training Bro it was not your fault, there were other factors as well and as I said my girl has said after an argument she could not live without me and never for a second did I take here seriously and just let her storm off to get over it. It shows by your post it was true love, somthing very few people will ever get and in time you will find someone special again. I know if anything happened my princess she would want me to make the most out of my life.

 

[Geoffke]

Your story touched me...
That's so sad.
Keep you head up bro

 

[LEX]

Sorry brother,

you gotta go on man, time will help heal, wish I could say something that would help but at least you know we are here for ya. Try to get back into things like work , lifitng --get back to a schedule.

 

[Northwatch619]

Hey K.

Recieved you PM and tried to replay but you box is full...understandably.

I'm so sorry to hear of this news. My thoughts and prays are with you. I'm on my way out but until then Try and keep the Faith you can muster!

You've Reached out to your friends and that is a giant step in the right direction to healing.

PM if you need to talk.

NW/K.

 

[pumpputnam]

Very sad. Details are obviously being left out... but regardless we alll feel the pain you have inside. Horrible! This is a critical time for you. Time is the only thing that will make it better, but in the short time please find others you can share your feelings with. Don't be afraid to grieve. Don't blame yourself. And just have the grace to allow others time who are hurt(her parents) to view things more clearly.

God bless

 

[Kaiser]

Aw, man, that's unbelievable. That would be my worst nightmare. I don't know or have any knowledge of such a loss so I can't fathom the pain. Both Simone and I feel your loss, and may you find the strength to pull out of this successfully. Hang in there man.

 

[mike1107]

Very sad. Details are obviously being left out... but regardless we alll feel the pain you have inside. Horrible! This is a critical time for you. Time is the only thing that will make it better, but in the short time please find others you can share your feelings with. Don't be afraid to grieve. Don't blame yourself. And just have the grace to allow others time who are hurt(her parents) to view things more clearly.

God bless

yes you're right

I ain't blamin her parents and her "supposedly friends" who were never here when she needed to talk
Everybody saw her strong and brave but like everyone she had his weakness and I was her only confident
Her parents are suffering now and for her, I'll respect them and stay by my side with my friends and family...

but I think that having a person only counting on you is too much ... family and friends are here for that too
I mean I was always here to listen to her problems, concerns ... but why was I the only one she could talk to ???
I'll never know and don't want to know anyway ...

 

[mrcat]

SAD story, best of luck in recovery. Unfortunately, you can't go back in time, try to keep positive about the future.....

 

[Nemesis79]

Time is the best resource for healing..instead of focusing on the cause of it that was you...focus on the good that you had together..i'm getting engaged and I have an ex that hates that and says things similar to what your girlfriend said those words "I can't live without you"..i just hope she doesnt' do it either..So believe it or not your story hits home and I do understand.
gym is going to take time to get normal..but it will eventually.

 

[HAZMAT]

PAIN

I DO NOT HAVE THE WORDS TO HEAL YOUR WOUNDS AS NO ONE HERE DOES. BUT I DO KNOW THERE ARE A LOT OF US MORE THAN WILLING TO GO THE EXTRA MILE TO HELP YOU BRO. I HAVE NOT SUFFERED A LOSS SO CLOSE BUT CLOSE ENOUGH TO KNOW WHAT YOU GOING THROUGH TO A DEGREE. WHEN YOU CAN'T GET A HOLD OF YOURSELF, YOU KNOW WHAT I'M TALKING ABOUT GET ON THE PHONE AND TALK TO YOUR FAMILY OR FRIENDS NO MATTER WHAT TIME IT IS THEY WILL UNDERSTAND IT HELPS. IF THAT FAILS GET ON THE COMP AND TALK TO US WE ARE YOU FRIENDS TOO. THE PAIN SUCKS AND I KNOW BUT THERE IS NOTHING YOU CAN DO TO CHANGE WHAT HAS HAPPENED. IF IT WASN'T TO HAPPEN THIS WAY IT WOULD HAPPEN ANOTHER WITH THE SAME RESULTS. TALK TO US AS MUCH AS POSSIBLE. HANG IN THERE BRO. GOD BLESS AND I HOPE TO HEAR FROM YOU MORE SO THAT WE KNOW YOUR O.K AS WELL.

 

[glenihan]

i'm truly sorry for your horrible loss

 

[xcelbeyond]

Grieve her, miss her, cry.

But - - don't put any blame on yourself. Everyone makes their "own" decisions, we only believe that we have influence over others.

I'm sure she's in a better place now - just got there much earlier than most of us expected.

 

[badman]

That sucks to hear that bro... be strong... similar event happened to me about 4 1/2 years ago... I found someone who liked me for me and I was so happy then around Christmas time I didn't hear anything from her... then one of her friends told me she wanted to break up... fast forward 3 years later it turns out she was killed by her uncle and later on found and I didn't know any of these events happened... her friend sheltered me from not knowing so I wouldn't feel hurt by the events...

 

[Shelby]

Very sad indeed. Life is so precious. Grieve, but realize that life has ups and downs and you need to carry on.

Take care.

 

[JETHRO TULL]

Mike...hey, all this is not your fault.

Like Excel said.......we each make our own choices in life. That choice was hers and I am so very sorry that choice has left you in pain.

I agree that her parents will look for someone, something, to blame. Ignore that...only deal with your own feelings and thoughts.

Please, take it easy on yourself and get back to enjoying life. It really is a gift if you ask me. Hang in there, Mike. Don't let this ruin you.

 

[mike1107]

Like Excel said.......we each make our own choices in life. That choice was hers and I am so very sorry that choice has left you in pain.

I agree that her parents will look for someone, something, to blame. Ignore that...only deal with your own feelings and thoughts.

Please, take it easy on yourself and get back to enjoying life. It really is a gift if you ask me. Hang in there, Mike. Don't let this ruin you.

no I won't ... I'll go back to training in a few days, start dieting too
as I said, it's hard to go back to the gym since I met her there 1 year ago and we've beenspending a lot of our time there
but that's what I'm and I can't let that go (bodybuilding, dieting ...)