Those of you who have a good relationship with your fathers should be very grateful, I can only imagine how much different things would be for me if mine hadn't ruined my childhood and my self worth.
I know no words can ease your pain right now.I have been there.My father was my hero also.He was very athletic with a great build.It is good that you had some words before his passing.I am sure he is very proud of you.
My prayers are with you & your family.God bless