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[pimpman]

I'm confused , it's sounds like you are leaving the board? What does dosage have to do with posting on PM? @emeric delczeg only takes 10mg of test per day and still comes here and post and interacts. Maybe I am misreading your post? @slesh

I’m confused too and I’ll explain why. Maybe @slesh has and answer. I’ve have 3 herniated discs in my lower back and two in my vertical. My pain dr which I go to every month beside doing nerve block and injection his had me on Percocet for over seven years is it habit forming yes addicting not to me because I don’t get a high of it. But I have been able to get off it a bunch of times by using gabapantin it take away every single craze and I mean every single craze. Besides that what does lower to trt dose is going to do to you or by not posting in this threads. As far as for me working out doing my mall cycles and sharing things with you guys here is what keeps me sane and not think about the drug. Further more PAWS stand for post addiction withdrawal symptom. Which that kicks I. After a person has gone to rehab and been clean for months and the brain/ the body is craving to do the drugs but that’s the easy part to say no because you’re clean unless you are and addict and want to try it again. I don’t mean any disrespect to @slesh. But I know very well what I’m talking about. I’ve had more friends that you can all think of that been through this and family members. PAWS IS NOT SOMETHING YOU GET RIGHT AWAY.amd to add I have degenerate discs bunching discs and arthritis

 

[Swifto]

Just like lifting you do it for so long it becomes a part of us. I can remember years ago asking BigA to erase me from the site, I was moving on. He said think about it and come back to me in x amount of time.

Take care of yourself Slesh!
I know you do/will.
See you back soon

I did the same about 13 years ago and Big A talked me out of it!

 

[qbkilla]

I'm confused , it's sounds like you are leaving the board? What does dosage have to do with posting on PM? @emeric delczeg only takes 10mg of test per day and still comes here and post and interacts. Maybe I am misreading your post? @slesh

This. I gave up chasing the bb look years ago...I actually am way more into calesthenics now...prison style workouts (no silly tricks) with some isolated for delts and of course a leg day. I still love posting here and learn stuff daily (nutrition, training, diet, aas, longevity). I think you made a good decision to focus on mental and physical health best of luck!

 

[mexbeast]

Hey Fellas,

I didn’t want to just disappear and cause a bunch of speculation. Have been doing a lot of reflection and my time bodybuilding has officially come to an end. Will always be into a fitness lifestyle but will be practicing a true HRT protocol going forward. I just turned 39, had the most amazing birthday trip as many of you witnessed, but experienced some serious highs and lows including life changing tragedies that will forever haunt me. All the while didn’t realize I was going through PAWS from opiate withdrawal.

For over a decade I have been taking a small dose of Lortabs to get through my lifts to deal with all my injuries. I didn’t bring them on my trip as I had no intention of lifting heavy. I never woke up in the morning craving my pills but apparently I had become so dependent on them it completely rewired my brain and going cold turkey during the trip drove me into a manic state. It seems I’m finally pushing through the PAWS but it’s been one of the most psychological and physical painful experiences of my life - had no clue what a junky I really was…

And with all the above I decided it’s time to hang it up. I never intended to step on stage. This has always been a hobby/lifestyle for me. I’ll always be a gym rat, meal prepping, fasted cardio, etc… but my time blasting/cruising, eating 7-8k calories a day are over. The below pic is from my last day in Thailand and that’s the physique I intend to maintain going forward.

I will always appreciate my decade plus time on this board. I’ve made friends on here that are now my buds in IRL and will forever be. This post is not meant to judge anyone. Every man needs to make his own decisions and walk their own path in this life. I’ll pop back in occasionally to say what’s up. Feel free to connect with me on IG - @thehandrollking. Wish everyone the best.

Much love,
Slesh

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Definitely try your hardest to stay away from anything that messes with your mind! I'm honestly happy you are dropping all the high doses, it will be the best decision you have made! Best wishes!

 

[my_way]

just say you don’t got what it takes to be bodybuilder

there you are…

 

[romo]

Definitely try your hardest to stay away from anything that messes with your mind! I'm honestly happy you are dropping all the high doses, it will be the best decision you have made! Best wishes!

I have read many post from slesh, i can not recall that he really ran all the high doses. I believe he pushed the Gh pretty high. I know one thing i have had to dial back mine as i have gotten older.

 

[my_way]

I have read many post from slesh, i can not recall that he really ran all the high doses. I believe he pushed the Gh pretty high. I know one thing i have had to dial back mine as i have gotten older.

Thread 'I fucking love steroids'
https://www.professionalmuscle.com/forums/index.php?threads/i-fucking-love-steroids.180490/

 

[romo]

Thread 'I fucking love steroids'
https://www.professionalmuscle.com/forums/index.php?threads/i-fucking-love-steroids.180490/

Ha! Cool! I do remember this thread! Ok I'm going back through it now lol.

 

[fastron75]

see you back here in a month

 

[control]

I think recent events have a lot of us rethinking our lifestyle choices (including me). Good luck to you, and congratulations on having the courage to re-invent yourself and let go of things that are not good for you. Most people don't.

 

[Theone233]

Nothing wrong with being rational and realizing what’s important in life. I haven’t done any cycles in 10 plus years. Was thinking about doing one after my yearly blood work which was in the beginning of March. Blood work came back really well and I just don’t want to mess with it. I’m 39, got 3 kids and probably will try for another kid soon. Got a good job, a good woman after a 16 year relationship went sour and she cheated on me. Tore the family apart and still tries to make waves with my new life. I don’t know what tomorrow will bring but I surely want to try my hardest to see my kids grow up and achieve all the great things that I know they will. I will send you a friend request on IG. Always find that inner peace and run with it

 

[maxrep24]

Opiate withdrawal ain’t no joke, I’ve had my fair share of that shit, im glad you’re getting through it! Wish you the best man, hate to see you leave the board

 

[mexbeast]

I have read many post from slesh, i can not recall that he really ran all the high doses. I believe he pushed the Gh pretty high. I know one thing i have had to dial back mine as i have gotten older.

Maybe i miss assumed? Since he said he was coming down to trt, in any case we all need to take a break from abusing the sht out of this things, i know that after a while when he gets to that state of mind he will be happy with the session

 

[3BILLS]

I’m confused too and I’ll explain why. Maybe @slesh has and answer. I’ve have 3 herniated discs in my lower back and two in my vertical. My pain dr which I go to every month beside doing nerve block and injection his had me on Percocet for over seven years is it habit forming yes addicting not to me because I don’t get a high of it. But I have been able to get off it a bunch of times by using gabapantin it take away every single craze and I mean every single craze. Besides that what does lower to trt dose is going to do to you or by not posting in this threads. As far as for me working out doing my mall cycles and sharing things with you guys here is what keeps me sane and not think about the drug. Further more PAWS stand for post addiction withdrawal symptom. Which that kicks I. After a person has gone to rehab and been clean for months and the brain/ the body is craving to do the drugs but that’s the easy part to say no because you’re clean unless you are and addict and want to try it again. I don’t mean any disrespect to @slesh. But I know very well what I’m talking about. I’ve had more friends that you can all think of that been through this and family members. PAWS IS NOT SOMETHING YOU GET RIGHT AWAY.amd to add I have degenerate discs bunching discs and arthritis

How high were you when you wrote this?

 

[3BILLS]

You're a good dude slesh, and all my interactions with you have been overwhelmingly positive.

I understand you're going through a lot a lot and the natural tendancy is the pull away and isolate, but I think this would be a mistake. I think its better to surround yourself with like minded people that can atleast relate to what youre going through on some degree or level.

So not posting on pro muscle is
Pulling away and isolating ? Lol

Ages ago i had a training partner pass away. We worked out everyday together at the same gym. After his passing i didnt want to train at that gym anymore. Didnt feel the same

 

[KingOfSushi]

Will always be into a fitness lifestyle but will be practicing a true HRT protocol going forward.

This better include SOME level of black tops. If not, I will simply not allow this.

 

[KingOfSushi]

How high were you when you wrote this?

All I know is seeing @pimpman go after @Biggerp73 for not using paragraphs the other day in his new oil thread was one of the most ironic things I’ve ever seen

 

[Thahn]

I cant speak for slesh but i would predict he will say its probably seeing all this stuff will make him want to blast again, when he knows and wants to slow down.

But slesh has to be one of the best all round posters in here. I am not new i just forgot my password hah

 

[pimpman]

How high were you when you wrote this?

Not high at all I don’t get high or drink alcohol

 

[Chipper Jones78]

All I know is seeing @pimpman go after @Biggerp73 for not using paragraphs the other day in his new oil thread was one of the most ironic things I’ve ever seen

Not to derail this thread, but that was me, and ya, it bothered me