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I recently had a thread that went a through pages deep about depression... ALOT of people gave great advice on here both through PM and on the boards.. Ive come to realize my depression seems to stem from me relying on someone else to be happy... Mainly in relationships.. I dont have many friends in life.. And recently was left by yet another gf, just because she wasnt "feeling it long term" Im 30 years old, have always wanted nothing more in life than to get married, and have a family... Now out of the only 3 friends that i have, im the only one not there....
I never go out unless its to one of their houses, and im always the 3rd, 5th, or 7th wheel... None of us drink and none of us are into going to clubs/bars whatever, so meeting a grl is virtually impossible... I know for someone else to love me, i have to love myself, and love myself alone... But no matter how hard i try i just cant do it... Im again teetering on the edge because i feel that im a complete worthless piece of shit because no one wants me..
My family pretty much wrote me off when i was 18 because growing up i was a pos scumbag that thought i knew everything... Ive tried to reconcile, but it wont happen... How do i get passed this feeling... my days are gym, work, sleep... i sleep between 14 and 16 hours a day... leaving the house is unbearable because when i go to places such as the beach, mall, bookstore, and i see happy couples it literally kills me.
Im sure ill get a bunch of answers like "man up" "dont be a pussy" "get out there and meet some grls and smash them" But in all honesty im being sincere here and need some help... I dont want to lose it, but i feel like im close.
I never go out unless its to one of their houses, and im always the 3rd, 5th, or 7th wheel... None of us drink and none of us are into going to clubs/bars whatever, so meeting a grl is virtually impossible... I know for someone else to love me, i have to love myself, and love myself alone... But no matter how hard i try i just cant do it... Im again teetering on the edge because i feel that im a complete worthless piece of shit because no one wants me..
My family pretty much wrote me off when i was 18 because growing up i was a pos scumbag that thought i knew everything... Ive tried to reconcile, but it wont happen... How do i get passed this feeling... my days are gym, work, sleep... i sleep between 14 and 16 hours a day... leaving the house is unbearable because when i go to places such as the beach, mall, bookstore, and i see happy couples it literally kills me.
Im sure ill get a bunch of answers like "man up" "dont be a pussy" "get out there and meet some grls and smash them" But in all honesty im being sincere here and need some help... I dont want to lose it, but i feel like im close.