10 yrs ago today

[asleep]

so, july 1st 1998 after being out less than 1/2 hr. i came home to find my wife had committed suicide. something was taken from me that night. i dont know if i will ever be the person i was before this tragedy, although i've done pretty damn well.
just wanted to see this in black and white.

 

[oldfella]

Bro, Sorry for your loss. It may have been 10 years past but the pain lingers. You have done very damn well to get this far while living with this.

You are doing the right thing by airing it and letting out the pain. I feel for you bro and will spare a thought for you tonight!

 

[thebrick]

Bro, I am so sorry to hear of your painful loss. You will be forever changed from this. Life does that to us sometimes. I lost a son years ago. The pain fades somewhat but you never forget. We are here to support each other. Remember her with love.

 

[pesty4077]

It is the old saying, "How can you know how I feel, until you walk in my shoes" I went through alot of tradegy, but never lost a wife. My hopes and prayers for you is that God stenghthens you and helps to ease your pain. Realize that some people in this world do care. God bless you, Bro.

 

[asleep]

thank you for replying. i woke up today and checked to see if there were any posts and i must say, it is nice to see people who don't even know me reaching out. thanks again.

 

[mrsoul]

very sorry to hear you have been hurting so bad for so long. God bless you and i pray you will heal.

 

[Rob Roy]

I would collapse! I have nothing but respect for your strength. God Bless

 

[gordo14]

Best wishes....

Losing someone so close is an un-imaginable pain. Stay strong brother.

 

[PHIL HERNON]

Life

My father told me once, " life is not fair"........I was too young to know. My father was in Dental school in Cleveland when I was born.......my mother died 3 months after my birth. My dad came out of the shower, I was crying, he went over to the bed and my mother was dead.....asthma attack. He picked her up and carried her to the hospital.........them found the nearest church and knelt down there and cried for 3 hours. He then remembered that I was alone in the crib so he walked home and to gather my things and drive me and my mothers body back to NY for the burial and so I could stay with my grand parents so he could drive back to Cleveland and finish dental school. I now understand what "life is not fair" means........you are not alone my friend...........we are here for you. People do rise to the occasion....always have and always will.........you need to be there for others that hurt since you know how it feels and many need your understanding to cope. This is the gift your wife left you.................NOT FAIR, but a gift still. "Life is not fair"....so understated............

 

[oldfella]

Everyone has a story

Asleep, this is why I stay on this board. Thes people are my family, well to me any way. I do not have a huge circle of feinds here where I am, my real family is on the other side of the world, But I know that if I am ever in need of company, my family here will be there for me. Just as we are here for you when you need it most. We all have stories to tell and share, some tragic and some good. But what comes from all of it is our spirit to live and succeed at what we choose to do. It is our drive and determination that will drag us through the adversities and life's unfairness as Phil so aptly put it. It is also our friends here that will help us to get across that line when we fall down. You are never alone here bro, just call out and someone will answer. We share our pain, sorrows and happiness here, we are with you!!

 

[asleep]

wow, i gotta' tell you guys, reading these replies has brought tears to my eyes, but not all bad. i really cannot believe the support i am getting and the feeling it has given me. thank you all, sincerely, .

 

[confuzed_guy2000]

Not that this makes it any easier but Gary Allen, a country music star, had the very same thing happen to him. Depression is very real. It doesn't discriminate by race, gender, or social status.

My thoughts and prayers go out to you and your wife. You must have loved her very much. I couldn't imagine what I'd do in your situation but I'd hope I could be half as strong as you. Take care.

 

[Powerstrokin]

I am very sorry to hear that.. I am glad to see that you are doing the best you can. And like what was said its best to get it off your chest. We are all here for each other. When 1 is down we try to help to make you smile or feel the best we can. My prayers go out to you bro. I can tell you loved her very much. And she is still with you. I am sorry for your loss and family and friends. God Bless

 

[brandonjpowell]

so sorry for your loss bro! I pray that peace finds you and love envelops you and all you do. as others on this amazing board have said before, you are not alone.

Peace,
Brandon

 

[vegasnv]

Sorry for your loss asleep.
Stay strong.