I don't think you should be prepping for a show right now. Your life is not in order at all. Only go on stimulants, trenbolone, low sleep, and low calories when you have external stressors minimized and your mental health is optimized; otherwise you're just asking to feel worse and worse and start with self-reinforcing stress that just spirals out of control and wrecks your mind as well as your physique. Also, not trying to be a dick but I'm guessing English isn't your first language, correct? You should try to write using complete sentences rather than disconnected fragments; it will make your writing far more comprehensible.
Good luck, man. It sounds like low IGF reading is the least of your problems right now. Your GH probably isn't fake. Its simple that the tren ace messing up that igf number. Don't sweat it. Divorce is terrible and I wouldn't wish it on my worst enemy. I sincerely wish you the best in navigating that very traumatic and difficult process.