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I am very weak and sick right now, but, i'll make this quick and to the point. My life is now coming to an end at 40yrs old. Thanks to cancer that is having a party throughout my body. If I had a chance to go back 20 yrs to where the point i made a choice to use anabolic steroids, i woulsd have chosen not to.
My choice to use roids and HGH began when i was a US ARMY MP stationed in Germany in the late 80's. I did a few cycles here and there. When I got out of the Army, I became employed with a police department in my hometown. I didn't use steroids again until mid/late 90's. My 11th year on the force sometime around 2000, i receved a package of winny tabs. Low and behold, it was a followed with a warrant. Long story short, I was arrested, prosecuted and fired from the department. Shortly thereafter, my wife of 13 yrs. divorced me. She would not/ did not want to deal with the humiliation of my arrest and termination from the department. Also, she would not/did not want to be around when I was suicidal from this incident.
So, at this point, I am living (struggling) on my own, no family, no friends, and making $9.50/hr. I dive heavily into dealing and using steroids to supplement my income to avoid being homeless. At this point, my cycles were long and highly dosed. I got to my biggest size ever at 37 yrs old. 6-01, 230 lbs, 8%BF. Even played on a semi-pro football team, until a hamstring injury ended that. Eventually became self-employed and back on my feet after 2-3 yrs.
I still used gear up until I started ejaculating blood in 2004. I mean it was like a fresh cut when it pumped out! I was somewhat reluctant and embarrassed to go to the doctor about it, and besides, I did not have health insurance and could not afford medical bills. From what i researched on the web, it was not an uncommon problem and it should go away. Well after a year, it didn't. So I finally was able to get the insurance and get my balls checked out. At first, the doctors couldn't find anything, and said it must be an infection, put me antibiotics. (I went to three different doctors for different opinions). The blood eventually went away. But then every now and then I would piss blood for a day or 2, and it would go away.
3 yrs later, I am not feeling well. Just have a strange feeling about my body and the symtoms are appearing again, I go to the doctor, then he sends me to speacialists, bloodwork, etc. Get a call from oncologist to come in for an appointment to discuss bloodwork and test results. Not good, I'm thinking. And my worst fears are confirmed. Cancer originated in my bladder and is spreading to other organs.
Chemo sucks and its a shot in the dark, don't know if it will do any good, and i feel worse. Weight right now is 172 lbs.
I am not condoning or condemming the use of gear to anyone. Its a chance you personally take. I'm just saying, I strongly feel that if i had the chance to go back in time, i wouldn't have messed with it.
I try and check this site every now and then. made some friends on this board over the years, so just wanted to say good luck and goodbye to them.
Peace!
DOGGTALES
My choice to use roids and HGH began when i was a US ARMY MP stationed in Germany in the late 80's. I did a few cycles here and there. When I got out of the Army, I became employed with a police department in my hometown. I didn't use steroids again until mid/late 90's. My 11th year on the force sometime around 2000, i receved a package of winny tabs. Low and behold, it was a followed with a warrant. Long story short, I was arrested, prosecuted and fired from the department. Shortly thereafter, my wife of 13 yrs. divorced me. She would not/ did not want to deal with the humiliation of my arrest and termination from the department. Also, she would not/did not want to be around when I was suicidal from this incident.
So, at this point, I am living (struggling) on my own, no family, no friends, and making $9.50/hr. I dive heavily into dealing and using steroids to supplement my income to avoid being homeless. At this point, my cycles were long and highly dosed. I got to my biggest size ever at 37 yrs old. 6-01, 230 lbs, 8%BF. Even played on a semi-pro football team, until a hamstring injury ended that. Eventually became self-employed and back on my feet after 2-3 yrs.
I still used gear up until I started ejaculating blood in 2004. I mean it was like a fresh cut when it pumped out! I was somewhat reluctant and embarrassed to go to the doctor about it, and besides, I did not have health insurance and could not afford medical bills. From what i researched on the web, it was not an uncommon problem and it should go away. Well after a year, it didn't. So I finally was able to get the insurance and get my balls checked out. At first, the doctors couldn't find anything, and said it must be an infection, put me antibiotics. (I went to three different doctors for different opinions). The blood eventually went away. But then every now and then I would piss blood for a day or 2, and it would go away.
3 yrs later, I am not feeling well. Just have a strange feeling about my body and the symtoms are appearing again, I go to the doctor, then he sends me to speacialists, bloodwork, etc. Get a call from oncologist to come in for an appointment to discuss bloodwork and test results. Not good, I'm thinking. And my worst fears are confirmed. Cancer originated in my bladder and is spreading to other organs.
Chemo sucks and its a shot in the dark, don't know if it will do any good, and i feel worse. Weight right now is 172 lbs.
I am not condoning or condemming the use of gear to anyone. Its a chance you personally take. I'm just saying, I strongly feel that if i had the chance to go back in time, i wouldn't have messed with it.
I try and check this site every now and then. made some friends on this board over the years, so just wanted to say good luck and goodbye to them.
Peace!
DOGGTALES
