thanks for your words guys..
first of all, news from doc:
he also believes it is rhabdo and she told me to see the ER today,
i declined because i am much better than yesterday.
we made a deal - i go to him tomorrow, we get bloods done @ ER and if its better i can go home and recover there, if worse i have to stay in ER..
if anybody doesnt know:
rhabdo is destruction of muscle cells. myoglobin is releaed in the blood stream an its toxic to kidneys. thats probably why my pee was dark. however, blood test show kidneys are OK and my pee is light again. CK and ALT/AST still through the roof..
now to my girl:
well, unfortunately, i would say i am a beta male. I never said no to any wish. You can deadlift 405 pounds 7 times and still be a weak male..
but i think i did a good thing. She told me she still loves me and we should try but i think she just tells this because she has no money for an appartment and she also has no contact to her parents or close friends. so she is afraid i will drop her. I said she should go see for an appartment, idc how.
i also said i dont want to have her until end of november here.
@Nyoco:
i love/loved her more than anything else. it was my real first love and we are already together since a long time. of course it hurts.
and i know i am weak in the relationship department..
@FrancisK:
good summary.. i also cooked our meals