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I've been dating my current girlfriend for 5 months. She's 20 years old and I'm a couple years older. She is absolutely amazing to me. She'd literally do anything for me. I've never had that before out of any of my previous relationships. She cooks some amazing food and loves to cook. She takes care of me like very few people could (perhaps I've just dated girls too young?) She moved me out of my empty town with a shitty economy and moved me to the state capitol where she lived. Things are going slightly better for me now that I can find jobs.
Our relationship has changed however. She has become too needy for my tastes and is pushing for marriage already. She's a big fan of "reality" tv shows and is impulsive with money. Can't quit smoking and isn't doing much in the way of securing a future for herself. Acts very childish sometimes though like I said, I know she'd do anything for me and is very trustworthy and loyal. Her parents love me and it's hard for me to fit in with anybody's family so that feeling is mutual. It'd crush her for me to leave and I'd be afraid for her mental health.
Now, an ex of mine (my "first love" as some would say) from several years ago has gotten in contact with me. Technically, we've stayed in contact since our breakup didn't have much reason or closure. We were always going to get back together but the timing has always been bad. She and I have a connection like no other and she stimulates me mentally so much so that I now can't stop thinking about her. It's always been this way. No matter who she and I have been with or where we were, we were always on each other's minds. She had a kid about a year ago and her kid's father was a complete ass. She wants somebody who is willing to be permanent and a good influence in her daughter's life, which I'd be more than willing to do. She is several years older than me and is on the same level as me in so many ways. I now think about her 24/7. Not that I ever had a day go by in a couple years that she wasn't on my mind or vice versa.
To be honest, I met up with her a few days ago. I had her over, we talked at length, and things moved on from there. I've never been unfaithful before, and since my current relationship has been sliding very much recently, I don't feel remorse.
Financially it'd be hard for me to leave right now. I'd also feel like a total ass. My current girl is not happy and hasn't been for a while because of our differences. To her credit, she has never stopped trying. Neither have I however. I just think our differences are too great. Maybe she'll grow up soon and things would be amazing? Perhaps I'd be making a big mistake? I'm not sure I could go through life without knowing what it would be like to be with my ex again though. Even talking to that woman makes me 5x happier than normal and I feel much more stimulated and respected.
Any advice?
Our relationship has changed however. She has become too needy for my tastes and is pushing for marriage already. She's a big fan of "reality" tv shows and is impulsive with money. Can't quit smoking and isn't doing much in the way of securing a future for herself. Acts very childish sometimes though like I said, I know she'd do anything for me and is very trustworthy and loyal. Her parents love me and it's hard for me to fit in with anybody's family so that feeling is mutual. It'd crush her for me to leave and I'd be afraid for her mental health.
Now, an ex of mine (my "first love" as some would say) from several years ago has gotten in contact with me. Technically, we've stayed in contact since our breakup didn't have much reason or closure. We were always going to get back together but the timing has always been bad. She and I have a connection like no other and she stimulates me mentally so much so that I now can't stop thinking about her. It's always been this way. No matter who she and I have been with or where we were, we were always on each other's minds. She had a kid about a year ago and her kid's father was a complete ass. She wants somebody who is willing to be permanent and a good influence in her daughter's life, which I'd be more than willing to do. She is several years older than me and is on the same level as me in so many ways. I now think about her 24/7. Not that I ever had a day go by in a couple years that she wasn't on my mind or vice versa.
To be honest, I met up with her a few days ago. I had her over, we talked at length, and things moved on from there. I've never been unfaithful before, and since my current relationship has been sliding very much recently, I don't feel remorse.
Financially it'd be hard for me to leave right now. I'd also feel like a total ass. My current girl is not happy and hasn't been for a while because of our differences. To her credit, she has never stopped trying. Neither have I however. I just think our differences are too great. Maybe she'll grow up soon and things would be amazing? Perhaps I'd be making a big mistake? I'm not sure I could go through life without knowing what it would be like to be with my ex again though. Even talking to that woman makes me 5x happier than normal and I feel much more stimulated and respected.
Any advice?
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