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Where I went wrong ..........
After I read another great post by our esteamed member DAD[in the beginers section ] and read the awesome responses by JT and Big boy J it got me thinking ......WHERE DID U GO WRONG IN THIS GAME ?
Well , after thinking a minute and coming to grips with my stupididy , it hit me . Plain and simple, it was the path that I chose with AAS. instead of seeing them as a tool to help my physique get to another level I looked at them as an answer. A big mistake that would change the course of my life forever.
I started training because as a very young kid I liked to draw the heros out of comic books . One Sunday afternoon ,when I was about 10 years old my father takes me to the book store like he had always done every sunday since I had learned to read .When I asked him to buy me this comic book he smiles and sayes , " Don't you think you are getting alittle old for that stuff " . He reaches over and grabs a Muscle & Fitness from the rack and said , " You sould read this if you want to look like those guys in the comic books " . I grabed the mag and thumbed through it. I couldn't believe those guys where real . I asked him to buy it and soon I was obsessed . I cut lawns and got allowance for chores . I spent everydime on magazines and weight equipment . By the age of 12 ,I was a neighborhood legend .I was bigger and stronger than most 16 years olds and the older girls were taking notice . I dominated every sport that I did and that carried on through high school. And I always had the hottest girls with me .......I was never a bully, but liked to fight and had a rep as dangerous guy that was really nice . I tried drugs and alcohol at a very young age and they just seemed like a waste of time . I spent my time with my girlfriends , close friends , or at home reading my magazines .At 14 ,I won my first contest and was really hooked after that . Training was an extension of who I was . The sad thing is that I believed the mags like they were bibles until I was 15. At that time I joined a very hardcore gym that was owned by a massive guy [ and one of the biggest steroid dealers in history ] . My first day , I saw guys getting injected behind the counter and saw used syringes in the locker room . I was blown away . The guys in this gym were insanely big and I begin to realize why .[ I am talking several Mr Cal winners and contenders as well national level guys . Many just great bodybuilders in the gym ......upwards of 30 guys that were at that level ] By 16, I was getting ready to go away to play college football and was 225 and lean . I was a local football hero , but had become disillusioned with bodybuilding . I saw what was happening to the guys I looked up to and it wasn't good . Guys were going to jail for beating thier girlfriends and for dealing left and right . Guys were dieting on coke back then and getting hooked bad .....the scene scared me and it made me anti steriod and I stayed that way until after my playing days were complete in my brief NFL stint. I saw drugs around alot in college and in the NFL and I think that eveyone thought I was on for as long as I can remember .[ since jr high ,I had been accused and rumors were always floating ].
At 23 , my football career was done and I was going to grad school and working at nightclubs ,running and managing security .[ I had been working in bars since 17 .] One night , I fought a guy in the parking lot that was supposed to be a pretty tough guy . When I came out on top, a guy in the paking lot approached me and tells me that I should fight in MMA.[I ended up training with many lengends of that sport ] He said I should come train with some guys he knew and that this sport was the future. So I went and these guys kicked my ass , I was humbled ......I went to a friends house and told him about the training session. While he was in the shower I noticed a copy of the dan duchane's UGSh. I was instantly intranced by his book. Soon I was reading everything and anything about AAS . It a short time I considered myself a guru on the subject. Before I even did my first cycle I was dealing at a high level and successfully training guys for shows . When I jumped on it was with AD , test , and deca . [ probally 1500 mgs woth ]
Instead of learning from the mistakes of my former idols growning up I was becoming worse . Shortly thereafter ,I meet Jason Muller [ AE fame ] and we became very close , very fast . I was invloved with some organized crime people and was doing some collections as well . JM was extremely bright , always had my back , but was even more obsessed and extreme than I was .[ 10 fold ] I turned him from a farm town ma ma's boy to one bad MF real fast . As our friendship grew and so did our quest for the secrets to being huge . We were hard at 290 and 311 , but never thought we were big enough . We always thought we were missing something that would make us into straight freaks . Then we came across a certain member of this board and thought we found the missing piece of the puzzle . This guy was way bright , shared our code of ethics , and had some insider knowledge that we didn't . The guy had a brutal training system , and we tried to kill eachother during every workout .[ people would always stare ,even the pros in Venice were in awe of some of the crazy shit he had us do ] Well , that insanity didn't last long , We got busted trying to help a friend in need of some help and I ending up turning my close friend JM into a felon along with myself.[ like I said the guy always had my back ....I love the man and the other person involved as well ] Our educations, reputations , and freedom went out the window that day ............
We were blinded by our quest glory and instead we destroyed our lives .Steriods were the not the reason for my destruction [or my buddy's]. I am a man and I am resposible for any choice that I make , but one thing that I do know . They are not the answer either ........there are no secrets .....no hidden stacks or routines ........just the basics [ basic movements , always get stronger , lots of rest , and eat a great diet ] ......gear should be always used low dose and treated as purely gravey if it used at all .[ do you really have a reason to use --- REALLY ? ] I am not against the use of gear ,just remember .Gear is not the answer . Don't let your drive to be the best you can be, blind you into making some bad decisions .Don't stray for the rightous path .[ and no I am not religious]........Not Worth it Guys ....I promise you that ! .................................Be smart !!!!
After I read another great post by our esteamed member DAD[in the beginers section ] and read the awesome responses by JT and Big boy J it got me thinking ......WHERE DID U GO WRONG IN THIS GAME ?
Well , after thinking a minute and coming to grips with my stupididy , it hit me . Plain and simple, it was the path that I chose with AAS. instead of seeing them as a tool to help my physique get to another level I looked at them as an answer. A big mistake that would change the course of my life forever.
I started training because as a very young kid I liked to draw the heros out of comic books . One Sunday afternoon ,when I was about 10 years old my father takes me to the book store like he had always done every sunday since I had learned to read .When I asked him to buy me this comic book he smiles and sayes , " Don't you think you are getting alittle old for that stuff " . He reaches over and grabs a Muscle & Fitness from the rack and said , " You sould read this if you want to look like those guys in the comic books " . I grabed the mag and thumbed through it. I couldn't believe those guys where real . I asked him to buy it and soon I was obsessed . I cut lawns and got allowance for chores . I spent everydime on magazines and weight equipment . By the age of 12 ,I was a neighborhood legend .I was bigger and stronger than most 16 years olds and the older girls were taking notice . I dominated every sport that I did and that carried on through high school. And I always had the hottest girls with me .......I was never a bully, but liked to fight and had a rep as dangerous guy that was really nice . I tried drugs and alcohol at a very young age and they just seemed like a waste of time . I spent my time with my girlfriends , close friends , or at home reading my magazines .At 14 ,I won my first contest and was really hooked after that . Training was an extension of who I was . The sad thing is that I believed the mags like they were bibles until I was 15. At that time I joined a very hardcore gym that was owned by a massive guy [ and one of the biggest steroid dealers in history ] . My first day , I saw guys getting injected behind the counter and saw used syringes in the locker room . I was blown away . The guys in this gym were insanely big and I begin to realize why .[ I am talking several Mr Cal winners and contenders as well national level guys . Many just great bodybuilders in the gym ......upwards of 30 guys that were at that level ] By 16, I was getting ready to go away to play college football and was 225 and lean . I was a local football hero , but had become disillusioned with bodybuilding . I saw what was happening to the guys I looked up to and it wasn't good . Guys were going to jail for beating thier girlfriends and for dealing left and right . Guys were dieting on coke back then and getting hooked bad .....the scene scared me and it made me anti steriod and I stayed that way until after my playing days were complete in my brief NFL stint. I saw drugs around alot in college and in the NFL and I think that eveyone thought I was on for as long as I can remember .[ since jr high ,I had been accused and rumors were always floating ].
At 23 , my football career was done and I was going to grad school and working at nightclubs ,running and managing security .[ I had been working in bars since 17 .] One night , I fought a guy in the parking lot that was supposed to be a pretty tough guy . When I came out on top, a guy in the paking lot approached me and tells me that I should fight in MMA.[I ended up training with many lengends of that sport ] He said I should come train with some guys he knew and that this sport was the future. So I went and these guys kicked my ass , I was humbled ......I went to a friends house and told him about the training session. While he was in the shower I noticed a copy of the dan duchane's UGSh. I was instantly intranced by his book. Soon I was reading everything and anything about AAS . It a short time I considered myself a guru on the subject. Before I even did my first cycle I was dealing at a high level and successfully training guys for shows . When I jumped on it was with AD , test , and deca . [ probally 1500 mgs woth ]
Instead of learning from the mistakes of my former idols growning up I was becoming worse . Shortly thereafter ,I meet Jason Muller [ AE fame ] and we became very close , very fast . I was invloved with some organized crime people and was doing some collections as well . JM was extremely bright , always had my back , but was even more obsessed and extreme than I was .[ 10 fold ] I turned him from a farm town ma ma's boy to one bad MF real fast . As our friendship grew and so did our quest for the secrets to being huge . We were hard at 290 and 311 , but never thought we were big enough . We always thought we were missing something that would make us into straight freaks . Then we came across a certain member of this board and thought we found the missing piece of the puzzle . This guy was way bright , shared our code of ethics , and had some insider knowledge that we didn't . The guy had a brutal training system , and we tried to kill eachother during every workout .[ people would always stare ,even the pros in Venice were in awe of some of the crazy shit he had us do ] Well , that insanity didn't last long , We got busted trying to help a friend in need of some help and I ending up turning my close friend JM into a felon along with myself.[ like I said the guy always had my back ....I love the man and the other person involved as well ] Our educations, reputations , and freedom went out the window that day ............
We were blinded by our quest glory and instead we destroyed our lives .Steriods were the not the reason for my destruction [or my buddy's]. I am a man and I am resposible for any choice that I make , but one thing that I do know . They are not the answer either ........there are no secrets .....no hidden stacks or routines ........just the basics [ basic movements , always get stronger , lots of rest , and eat a great diet ] ......gear should be always used low dose and treated as purely gravey if it used at all .[ do you really have a reason to use --- REALLY ? ] I am not against the use of gear ,just remember .Gear is not the answer . Don't let your drive to be the best you can be, blind you into making some bad decisions .Don't stray for the rightous path .[ and no I am not religious]........Not Worth it Guys ....I promise you that ! .................................Be smart !!!!
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