well.....
Not trying to be a Dick but, this was a "Natural" show, correct? What exactly did you expect? You admittedly have used anabolics (as I am sure others in the show had as well), yet you expect to be rewarded for what was probably obviously an enhanced physique? Would you really have felt a great sense of accomplishment upon beating other competitors who quite possibly may have been (semi) clean? Dont expect to escape politics and such in the NPC as it is equally rampant. It is quite common for people to feel "robbed" or cheated post show for whatever reason. We sometimes are not the best judges of our own physiques. Put the pictures away for a few weeks, (maybe months) then pull them out again and you will be more subjective about your physique. It is too fresh presently and you sound a bit bitter so put it aside for a while. Have your pizza, KFC and Donuts take a break from the gym then re-focus, re-prioritize, set some goals and then hit the gym with a new intensity. Sounds like you have some great potential, dont let the anger blur your vision of your ultimate goal. Later!