Mental illness is no joke. Keep going to the doctor and really push yourself to open up about everything, including your past. She's probably already sized you up without you knowing it, and is gently breaking the news to you.
Hey, at least you'll be a better person after it's all said and done. You may not look at the "old" self the same, though. That includes this bodybuilding endeavor you've taken on for some reason.
Sounds like your doc doesn't understand the definition. To the fat and lazy, we're all pretty much narcissistic.
One thing I learned long time ago, is that therapists exist entirely to make women feel good about themselves. The good ones (that actually tell it like it is) go out of business fast, because you just can't get repeat customers that way.
"Don't hate. Congratulate". Rev' Run
"Don't hate. Congratulate". Rev' Run