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NOt sure I have a specific question to ask but I guess I wanted to see if this has happend to anyone else and how they are dealing with it. Recently, I began noticing some pretty serious episodes of what could be described as mania. I am now being evaluated for Bipolar (probably BP2) at a day program at a local phyc facility.
The main symptom I'm seeing during manic periods, besides feeling like Superman, is Hypersexuality. Uncontrolled sex drive that can cause you to do things that you would never in a million F'ing years do. This is humiliating to say but when I get in that state I don't care if it's Male, female, married, unmarried, etc. Even if I don't take action, which thank god I don't, I wake up the next day absolutely repulsed with myself. I wish I could say it's because I'm just imoral, a Pig or Bisexual or something but I know that's not the case, which makes this esspecially difficult to deal with. When I'm in the right frame of mind, I would never have sex with a married woman and sure as the sun will rise wouldn't think of doing it with a guy.
In retrospect, I've probably suffered with this for my whole life but the symptoms were never in my face like they were this year. I always just dismissed my activities as reckless/undisciplined/stupid etc.
This year I cycled Test/Tren/Mast. a couple of times along with ancillaries. This was my first AAS use ever. This year is when the symptoms reached a point where they could no longer be ignored. I think the AAS use, while not the cause, accentuated the symptoms. I since discontinued all use except for a small Test dose. As I am depressed, I beleive bringing T to zero could spell disaster. I have an Endo appointment this month to finally jst do this right.
If I knew there was a chance I was Bipolar, I never would have used gear.
Have any of you guys ever experienced anything like this? If so, what did you do about it and how are you doing today? Do you ever get to the point where you feel hopefull? The irony is that while this is scary, I feel some sense of hope knowing that there may be a reason for it. At the same time, it's like the world is caving in.
The main symptom I'm seeing during manic periods, besides feeling like Superman, is Hypersexuality. Uncontrolled sex drive that can cause you to do things that you would never in a million F'ing years do. This is humiliating to say but when I get in that state I don't care if it's Male, female, married, unmarried, etc. Even if I don't take action, which thank god I don't, I wake up the next day absolutely repulsed with myself. I wish I could say it's because I'm just imoral, a Pig or Bisexual or something but I know that's not the case, which makes this esspecially difficult to deal with. When I'm in the right frame of mind, I would never have sex with a married woman and sure as the sun will rise wouldn't think of doing it with a guy.
In retrospect, I've probably suffered with this for my whole life but the symptoms were never in my face like they were this year. I always just dismissed my activities as reckless/undisciplined/stupid etc.
This year I cycled Test/Tren/Mast. a couple of times along with ancillaries. This was my first AAS use ever. This year is when the symptoms reached a point where they could no longer be ignored. I think the AAS use, while not the cause, accentuated the symptoms. I since discontinued all use except for a small Test dose. As I am depressed, I beleive bringing T to zero could spell disaster. I have an Endo appointment this month to finally jst do this right.
If I knew there was a chance I was Bipolar, I never would have used gear.
Have any of you guys ever experienced anything like this? If so, what did you do about it and how are you doing today? Do you ever get to the point where you feel hopefull? The irony is that while this is scary, I feel some sense of hope knowing that there may be a reason for it. At the same time, it's like the world is caving in.
I take shit for depression and shit, but my quaility of life is much better with my couple cycles a year. Do i think about crazy shit at times, i think almost everyone does at some point, but we don't act out on it cause we know right from wrong. DID DOING JUICE BRING OUT THIS CONDITION IN YOU? It may have had some facters, but look at it like this..... you ve been having this issue for along time, YOUR finnaly doing some thing about it!!! Life is good bro, weather you do juice(mabey not for u) or not. good luck.
