Johnny Smiles
Banned
- Joined
- Jun 9, 2009
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The most stuffed up thing was when I was upset on camera that had nothing to do with my heart or dieing, it was because my councilor had said on camera I was abusedas a child that is so hard to hear. I just laugh about having a heart problem and dieing yet i cry about hearing that, thats just stuffed !!!
you are not the only one brother. i think it makes serious impact in our lives.
i remember feeling so weak. so vulnerable. i never wanted to feel weak again. i wanted everyone to be intimidated by me. and so i found weights and bodybuilding. and i built a body of armour to protect me. but, that body of armour eventually became a prison and i was trapped in the lifestyle.
now i have high blood pressure and did my kidneys some damage... i broke free from it all though thanks to my wife and daughter who i would do anything for. i don't know if i will always be clean but i will be clean today...
thanks for your honesty and your story Big Kiwi! RESPECT.
-JS