Bro, Maldorf... I swear you’re in my fucking head man lmao....
You’re a big reason why I decided to get healthy, not just with AAS but with life in general.. I haven’t used anything harsh like Tren etc in about 5-6 years (early 20’s) but had been on self prescribed TRT the rest of the time usually shooting up 1cc ranging from 250-300mg once a week and sometimes taking a month off here and there cause I was lazy to inject or whatever.. But my main problem was partying, I would go out and drink/party all the time doing dumb shit and finally decided to get clean (over 2 years clean now) after reading your threads and experiences.. I started being super paranoid about my health, get everything checked regularly and stayed low dose, still self TRT though with some GH for about a year and then took like 7-8 months off everything to get LEGIT TRT (started that in August) from my docs etc and do things the right way.. I eat clean about 80% of the time, never drink alcohol or soda anymore and I do a good amount of cardio, REAL cardio (running/sprints and BJJ/grappling) at least 3-4x a week with some weight lifting about 3x a week as well. I take a good amount of health supplements as well just for safe measure...
AND EVERY DAMN TIME, literally every single time I think to myself “maybe I’ll raise the dose of Test just a little bit to 300-400mg MAX for just a few weeks to get a little boost and then go back to my REAL TRT” or “hmm maybe I’ll add in 3iu GH to my TRT for a few months and get that lean/popped look a little quicker” etc
YOU pop up with a post or bumping a thread about health and examples/experiences ranging from the most idiotic/high dosed abusers to just regular guys not taking anything crazier than some of what guys here call “moderate” and it makes me rethink everything and now I tell myself “eeeehhh fuck that, just see where you can get with JUST TRT and be happy with it bro” lmao