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Hey guys,
(Sorry for the bit of rambly Post, I hope this is ok to post here. Really would like to have input from the guys on this forum though, I respect you a lot)
the Discussion in the recent Jay Cutler Thread sparked me to think about my "career" in Bodybuilding, and I have reached a conclusion that I have basically wasted my time and failed to use the opportunity I had.
Quoting myself:
For context, I have not been physically active in my teenager years, and been fat and lazy in my years between 16-26. Like didn't do anything physical, was super overfat (150 kg at my heaviest... and all fat, no muscle). Turned my live around when I turned 27, lost the fat and picked up lifting and wrestling. Was pretty lean by the end of 29, and stayed that way since then - never wanting to get fat again. I hoped on gear in my mid 30s, just using the basic 500 Test/week cycle, tried some orals but didn't really like them, and then just went for Test+Deca when I was blasting, Test/Deca 500/600 - Mostly because that what I could fit into my 3 ml syringe and only have to inject twice per week .
For reference, this was me last year at the end of my blast:
And here are some current Pictures, please excuse the body hair, I am not shaving when it is Fall/Winter (175 cm short, at a light 105 kg)
I have some gyno issues (gyno started when I was 16, and it got worse from being fat all those decades) and obviously a lot of loose skin which will never go away, but I'm not going to get surgery, it is just too expensive, and I can't take not lifting weights and not grappling (No BJJ, no Judo, no wrestling) for 3 months, I would go insane. Strenuous Exercise is my therapy.
Does anyone else feel the same way? Does anyone else regret not having pushed the limits while he was young, and his body was able to withstand the beating?
I mean, I will continue to lift Iron and grapple every day until I'm 6 feet under, but I wouldn't mind having 20 kg more muscle mass . I just know I can't push it hard, it would not be productive. I have digestive issues, I wouldn't be able to eat 6000 kcals or more every day, even with foods that I can tolerate well. Also, I will never place well in any Bodybuilding Competition, my loose skin and gyno are just too bad (I know, that's my fault, still sucks). I mean it would maybe be a good experience to really get stage lean and go through a tough, hard prep - to build character and be okay with feeling shitty for weeks, voluntarily. But knowing that I'm not gonna place well despite how lean and shredded I'm coming in the show.
Really appreciate any kind of feedback and thoughts from you. Also would appreciate physique critique - I like my back, but I think my arms are lacking, especially the triceps, also my delts (and my legs are tiny, really need to bring those up)
Cheers
(Sorry for the bit of rambly Post, I hope this is ok to post here. Really would like to have input from the guys on this forum though, I respect you a lot)
the Discussion in the recent Jay Cutler Thread sparked me to think about my "career" in Bodybuilding, and I have reached a conclusion that I have basically wasted my time and failed to use the opportunity I had.
Quoting myself:
I'm 40 now, and I have missed my opportunity to really push size and growth to get big (+ 120 kg), and now my body just can't take the abuse of pushing the limit gear wise (and food wise). I can be a lean and athletic 100 kg guy, which is nice and all, but I should have gone crazy in my 20s and early 30s while I still was able to.
Now I will always be thinking "What if....".
For context, I have not been physically active in my teenager years, and been fat and lazy in my years between 16-26. Like didn't do anything physical, was super overfat (150 kg at my heaviest... and all fat, no muscle). Turned my live around when I turned 27, lost the fat and picked up lifting and wrestling. Was pretty lean by the end of 29, and stayed that way since then - never wanting to get fat again. I hoped on gear in my mid 30s, just using the basic 500 Test/week cycle, tried some orals but didn't really like them, and then just went for Test+Deca when I was blasting, Test/Deca 500/600 - Mostly because that what I could fit into my 3 ml syringe and only have to inject twice per week .
For reference, this was me last year at the end of my blast:
And here are some current Pictures, please excuse the body hair, I am not shaving when it is Fall/Winter (175 cm short, at a light 105 kg)
I have some gyno issues (gyno started when I was 16, and it got worse from being fat all those decades) and obviously a lot of loose skin which will never go away, but I'm not going to get surgery, it is just too expensive, and I can't take not lifting weights and not grappling (No BJJ, no Judo, no wrestling) for 3 months, I would go insane. Strenuous Exercise is my therapy.
Does anyone else feel the same way? Does anyone else regret not having pushed the limits while he was young, and his body was able to withstand the beating?
I mean, I will continue to lift Iron and grapple every day until I'm 6 feet under, but I wouldn't mind having 20 kg more muscle mass . I just know I can't push it hard, it would not be productive. I have digestive issues, I wouldn't be able to eat 6000 kcals or more every day, even with foods that I can tolerate well. Also, I will never place well in any Bodybuilding Competition, my loose skin and gyno are just too bad (I know, that's my fault, still sucks). I mean it would maybe be a good experience to really get stage lean and go through a tough, hard prep - to build character and be okay with feeling shitty for weeks, voluntarily. But knowing that I'm not gonna place well despite how lean and shredded I'm coming in the show.
Really appreciate any kind of feedback and thoughts from you. Also would appreciate physique critique - I like my back, but I think my arms are lacking, especially the triceps, also my delts (and my legs are tiny, really need to bring those up)
Cheers