A little bit about me and what should I do next?

[718si]

Read and follow this, just skip the drugs for now: http://www.professionalmuscle.com/forums/beginners-forum/8446-growth-principles-beginners.html

 

[teslacsten]

My friend I am going to give you the most simple advice that you will ever get and I promise it works on everyone. As young as you are none of us can actually predict your future physique. This is a very important step right here. Forget about all supplements besides maybe a daily multi vitamin and save all your money and what you do spend, do it on good solid foods, real food. Forget the supps. For now. You can get everything you need eating moms home cooked meals 3 times a day and a couple snacks between meals. Hit the gym 3-4 times a week and train hard for 45-60 minutes and while you are doing these things save your money and read to get all the knowledge on diet and supplements and gear you can. By the time you are around 22 you should have a pretty good base to start trying some more advanced techniques if you are still working out by then, it will make more sense to you and you should understand the more advanced principals by this time if you are still training. That's what separates the serious guys from the zitty 18-20 year old juice heads doing it for looks for a couple summers and screw their sex drives up and can't get it up even if they are with their dream mate. Keep it simple for now my young friend.

 

[SecondAct]

LIBIDO is fine.. erections are ok but not what they used to be.

but MENTALLY im fucked.. I feel that I HAVE TO go on cycle and just HAVE to get BIG. I dont know why I feel like this! after my last cycle I went proper depressed and mentally I just feel extremley addicted although I have only done two cycles and low doses. I guess I wasnt mentally strong to begin with but I feel extremley weird-but im not going to touch them. How can I overcome thise feeling of having to rely on steroids to get big?

I took steroids young, and was lucky in that I simply wasted my time and money, and didn't suffer ill-effects, but 18 is a hormonal Bermuda Triangle of an age, and every emotion, etc. is like an exposed nerve at that age. I had two friends end up in rubber rooms for a few months back in the late 80's during that time period.

Right now, you want it all, and want it right now. Learn to love the gym. Focus on proper form, nutrition, and getting strong. Your natural levels will likely bounce right back, and in a few years, you'll be ready to have a foundation upon which to build mentally and physically.

Everyone is obsessed here to a degree, but in all honesty, with where you're at, there isn't anything going to give you what you want quickly, so best go about it wisely.