I'm definitely an all or nothing guy, with pretty much everything, especially alcohol.
It's either I'm not drinking at all or I drink until I pass out. Been that way for over 15 years.
I've gone several stints (1 year, 6 months, etc.) where I'm completely on the wagon.
But once I fall off it's 2-3x week binge drinking.
As I age (turning 40 soon) it's starting to get very old and I don't really enjoy it as much as I used to.
Especially the recovery part where it takes 2-3 days to recover and by the time I feel 100% it's back to the hamster wheel...
It's just getting fucking old and I'm sick of it so I quit completely back in early July and feel amazing with zero desire to drink and don't even think about it.
I live right on a beach in South Florida so temptation is always there but when I make a decision and stick to it, I'm usually good about it and refuse no matter what.