- May 27, 2019
I'm impressed with the OP. Good going man.
You're kidding yourself if you think an addict will hold himself accountable. That's the very definition of an addict basically, somebody that breaks the promise to quit over and over again.Making that social contract to stop is also a great thing
You'll keep yourself accountable
Thats what i was doing. 1/3rd -1/2 litter of scotch with 3-6 beers every night when the sun goes down. After 2 years I drank my life into a pathetic mess. Made the decision January 25, 2020 to quit it. Thankfully I haven’t touched it since. If your not drinking to get drunk then wtf are you drinking it for. That’s how my mind thinks. Best of luck to you @Fit2Serve. There are some very challenging days.
i was drinking roughly half a half gallon every night. freaking ridiculous. a 1/2 gallon would last me 2 nights MAYBE a tad bit more but not much. i was buying a 1/2 gallon every 2-3 days. a pack of smokes ever 1-2 days.
since stopping the drinking and smoking in just this week and couple days i have put on about 10lbs! i been eating my ass off!
hung over and skinny fat i would eat maybe 2 crispy tacos for a late lunch. just a couple days of not drinking and i ate 3 tacos and a burger in one setting! ready to get in the gym next week and use those cals to get some muscle back!
Thank God brother.. Former Team guy. BTDT Theres help if you need. God bless, stay strong. 1 is too many, 30 not enough. Easy Daywhew!!! i finally did it! as some of you may know i have been on a binder.
for past @3-4 years or more i have consistently drank atleast 10 shots of vodka every night. usually @15 and as much as 20 shots was not uncommon at all.
and that was just a monday night....
Lots of things contributed to me going off the deep end but i will save that for my log i will start coming this monday when i get back to training.
Anyway, quick recap: about 3-4 years ago it dawned on me i would never compete again and coincidentally i started drinking every night. quick working out pretty much. liver was so jacked from the alcohol i would barely eat 1-2 small meals always shit food. i would pass out at 12 midnight and sleep til near 2pm waking up and finally getting out of bed only cuz blood sugar would be so low i'd go hypo
Well, last week i woke up and had enough of it. i was starting to see physical side effects of the alcohol abuse. i had gotten skinny fat cuz was consuming most my cals in alcohol and barely eating. no working out and usually skipping my trt shot... i got the shakes in my hands to where i could barely get fork or spoon to my mouth before shaking all the food off... constantly sweating...
i also smoked cigarettes anytime i was buzzed or drunk so bout 10-12 smokes a night. i did that and the 10-15+ shots of vodka every night for YEARS.
i have now been totally sober and quit smoking both cold turkey last monday so officially been 1 week and 2 days. i know that sounds small but it is a great beginning. i finally slept GOOD for first time since i stopped drinking. so took a full week before i slept good.
for anyone struggling w the drink, just STOP! No excuses, no tappering off just stop. sooooo worth it. i now cant think of a reason to ever drink again. cons totally outweigh the pros....
i will start a log soon to keep me accountable and to show anyone how fast you can get back in shape. atleast i think i can, we will see....
me, not so much. i just CANT be moderate w it. i have tried and tried.
i wish i could. i always claimed i could. but naw, these past few years proves it makes me a wreck.
my job contributed to the drinking. NOT bc its stressful but bc i dont really have to do anything. like maybe 10 hrs of work a week... and thats from my couch mostly... i became a sedentary drunken mess....
the log will be fun. you guys gotta hear some of the insanely stupid shit i have done while on this 3+ year long binge
You're kidding yourself if you think an addict will hold himself accountable. That's the very definition of an addict basically, somebody that breaks the promise to quit over and over again.
Not saying that I'm not happy to hear Fit2 is quitting, but yeah...been around addicts long enough to realize half or more of what they say is complete fucking bullshit.
Also, Fit2, I think its extremely reckless to tell people to stop drinking cold turkey. You can literally die from going cold turkey from a physical dependence on alcohol. But, luckily, nobody is actually relying on you for advice.
Sadly, I have far too much personal experience living with and in circles of addicts. I'm thankful I made it out. Without training, I doubt I would have. I would have been found like a few of my friends were, blue and with a fucking syringe stuck in their arm still. Training gave me a reason to live for awhile there until I gained again a clear view of what is important in life (family, basically).I was looking at it more from the perspective of breaking a bad habit. When people create a social contract, they tend to hold themselves accountable from the sheer sake of holding any personal worth intact
But I know addiction roots deep both physically, and psychology, and I have no experience with addiction, or dealing with addicts so yes, fair point there
Alcohol is probably the one thing where the social approval of drinking keeps one from ever considering what the line of addiction and consumption is
When my wife started working as an RN in 1993, the hospital she worked at kept beer in the fridge for the alcohol addicted patients. Fast forward 25+ years and that's unheard of (at least where she works).Most detox centers keep alcohol on hand just for this reason.
i def think thats part of it. turning 40 kinda hit me like a ton of bricks. added to my depression really... hard to accept i will never be better then i ever was. if that makes sense. but yeah, i am not getting any younger and i cant burn the candle at both ends any more. i really felt it catching up with me. my daughter is getting old enough to know what is going on too. my wife gaining weight... i'm not a "power parent" any more... fucking over it.I think the term is called "maturing out". When a longterm substance abuser actually changes perspective on their decision to use any longer. It can be done.
Fit2Serve. Good for you, it sounds like it was becoming unmanageable for you.
I do have one caution. NOT EVERYONE SHOULD GO COLD TURKEY. It can kill you. One of the few withdrawals that can. This is good advice for many, but the fact is some will die trying to follow this at all costs. Some may require a step down or medical intervention. Most detox centers keep alcohol on hand just for this reason.
i def think thats part of it. turning 40 kinda hit me like a ton of bricks. added to my depression really... hard to accept i will never be better then i ever was. if that makes sense. but yeah, i am not getting any younger and i cant burn the candle at both ends any more. i really felt it catching up with me. my daughter is getting old enough to know what is going on too. my wife gaining weight... i'm not a "power parent" any more... fucking over it.
i think the log will really motivate me. no promises on what happens i am gonna go with things... step by step. day by day.
right now i am REALLY enjoying food again.