Bro trust me ive been everywhere, I develpoed the anxiety (panic disorder) from a stressful time in my life, wasnt depressed, wasnt down on life, wasnt sitting at home crying about my upbringing or anything, I live a great life, I love my life, I am a very happy individual and have 0 depression whatsoever but what happened was the attacks turned more into a generalized anxiety (still with attacks of course) and if you read this thread you would know more about what I am talking about.
Throughout this thread I have stated how I believe one should take only the minimum of benzos required to get by and until you know what it is like you will not know what i mean by "get by". I take small doses like I said and it is down to just 1 or 2 times a week now so I am thrilled at the progress I have made.
How am I delaying the inevitable? I am simply trying to be able to live a decent, productive life and benzos, used responsibly, are a wonderful tool for that. I understand there is a great potential for abuse and that is why I am concious about the mg's, type and frequency of use. Morphine is a terrible drug with a high potential for abuse but if you were sitting in the hospital with a few shattered limbs im sure you wouldnt tell the nurses to pull the drip out...
Yes you are no doctor and no offense but from this post it sounds like you were, at one time, a junkie looking for a fix (from what I read) and taking pills everyday recreationally is far different than taking pills as needed, in moderation, as prescribed by every
doctor I have ever seen and DID help tremendously. I have made tons of progress in the last few years and benzos were a HUGE tool in helping me function like a normal person. I am not talking about having some butterflies in your stomach either bro, as mentioned in this very thread I am talking about crippling attacks, everyday, to the point where I would frequent the ER b/c I was having "heart attacks". These attacks are by far the worst thing I have ever gone through and trust me bro I havent had the easiest life but hell no one has and its nothing to whine about but my point is just that this is a serious medical condition and far beyond the scope of someone that is not seriously trained or has been through it first hand to be able to understand.
I too was the party animal at one time, loved doing whatever was on the table, and I used to never understand why a drug like xanax was ever even invented. I used to think that there was no way there could be a valid medical condition that called for its use but boy were my eyes widened when my attacks began. If it werent for the benzo family I dont know that I would have EVER been able to get a grip on these attacks. It is a terrible condition and I was having over a dozen attacks a day, mostly just from the shear fear of having another attack. Have a few of these attacks and I assure you it is not something you can just put to the back of your head, it is on your mind every second of every day and you are living in fear of the next time on comes. You honestly KNOW that you are going to die when these attacks come on benzos are litterally a lifesaver for anyone who has ever had to go through what I have in the last few years with these attacks.
Just to let you all know, I am a very healthy individual, the attacks started before I ever touched any juice, AAS in sane doses has not seemed to aggrivate it and like I have said I am a very happy person when not having an attack or living in fear that I will have one. It is a great feeling to know that even if you have one that you have an almost instant cure with you, no matter where you are, cant put a price on that level of security and again unless you have REALLY studied this or have experienced it yourself you really should not even comment, as you have absolutely no clue what the hell you are talking about.