So bear with me, im so lost with life right now. Im an RN, with a decent salary, I LOVE the area I work in, I have a wife, no kids but pets I treat better than most treat there kids. I own a house, have a life, 30ish years old. I have to continue working because I cant afford not to.
I started graduate school for nursing, I just can not physically do it. I enjoy the work, I want to learn, I like to learn, I simply just do not have enough time in my day to do the work needed that has to be done. I literally can not read all the pages I have to read by the due date let alone do the assignments and papers. Since starting the program, I have eaten 1 meal a day, barely drink water, my wife is non-existent, I don't even see my pets, i have not been the gym, i have not taken my supplements, etc.
I am a bodybuilder, i am willing to give up competing for the 3 years, but I can't just give up the gym. That is my happy place.. that is my release, it's where my friends are.
I understood it was going to be hard, but i never knew it to be this time consuming. I sometimes question if I really want to have my masters, or if i just want it so i can tell people i have it and look like a bigger deal or more important.
I just cant see myself sacrificing everything for the next 3 years. Is it really worth it when i currently work a job i love? Sure ill make 20-30k more a year if i graduate, but is money everything? I only work 3, 12 hour shifts a week as it is now which will give me a lot of time with my kids and time to go to the gym when i have them.. i have a good retirement, great health benefits, pto, sick, time, etc.
2 of my pets won't be around in 3 years when i graduate, i can't live not being there for them and not spending the time with them.
All last week, I wanted to get a new garage door lift, i wanted to cut the grass, i wanted to finish the border on the side of my house, I got NOTHING done.
My wife has to do 100% of the stuff around the house, i dont even have time to feed myself.
I graduated with my BSN undergrad with a 3.8gpa.. im smart enough to do it, i no that.. i wont sell myself short. I just simply don't have the time and im not sure if giving up everything to do it is the right thing. My wife and i combined make around $100k and her pay will increase by 10-15K when she lands her "Real" college degree job, and we will pocket more when we pay off our $700 month student loans. We would like to have 2 kids and live a middle class life.
/rant, sorry to vent guys.. just lost.
I started graduate school for nursing, I just can not physically do it. I enjoy the work, I want to learn, I like to learn, I simply just do not have enough time in my day to do the work needed that has to be done. I literally can not read all the pages I have to read by the due date let alone do the assignments and papers. Since starting the program, I have eaten 1 meal a day, barely drink water, my wife is non-existent, I don't even see my pets, i have not been the gym, i have not taken my supplements, etc.
I am a bodybuilder, i am willing to give up competing for the 3 years, but I can't just give up the gym. That is my happy place.. that is my release, it's where my friends are.
I understood it was going to be hard, but i never knew it to be this time consuming. I sometimes question if I really want to have my masters, or if i just want it so i can tell people i have it and look like a bigger deal or more important.
I just cant see myself sacrificing everything for the next 3 years. Is it really worth it when i currently work a job i love? Sure ill make 20-30k more a year if i graduate, but is money everything? I only work 3, 12 hour shifts a week as it is now which will give me a lot of time with my kids and time to go to the gym when i have them.. i have a good retirement, great health benefits, pto, sick, time, etc.
2 of my pets won't be around in 3 years when i graduate, i can't live not being there for them and not spending the time with them.
All last week, I wanted to get a new garage door lift, i wanted to cut the grass, i wanted to finish the border on the side of my house, I got NOTHING done.
My wife has to do 100% of the stuff around the house, i dont even have time to feed myself.
I graduated with my BSN undergrad with a 3.8gpa.. im smart enough to do it, i no that.. i wont sell myself short. I just simply don't have the time and im not sure if giving up everything to do it is the right thing. My wife and i combined make around $100k and her pay will increase by 10-15K when she lands her "Real" college degree job, and we will pocket more when we pay off our $700 month student loans. We would like to have 2 kids and live a middle class life.
/rant, sorry to vent guys.. just lost.