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First off, I need to say that I am a substance user/ abuser. Typically recreationally. And please, no negative comments because I feel like a piece of shit already, and have already lined up outpatient drug counselling with drug testing and all. So,
My problem. Big problem:
A few months back, I was out on a weekend binge, ran out of cash and used my company credit card to obtain funds. Basically I used the card to fuel someone's vehicle in exchange for cash. I was able to BS my way out of it with my boss, acted like my debit card got shut off after a weekend in N.Y., I was out of gas and had no backup cash or cards. I paid the company back almost immediately, so to me it wasn't that big a deal.
Apparently it was a pretty big deal to my boss. The cardholder policy explicitly states no personal use of card. So I assured him I would get a backup card and that it wouldn't happen again.
Fast forward to this past weekend. Same exact shit. You are probably thinking, what an idiot. And you'd be right. BUT, trust me when I say I wasn't in my right mind when I made the decision.
So within 2 weeks, I have to submit the expense report to my boss, and I expect him to not be very happy with me, likely get fired.
My current plan of action is to come clean, explain my problem and get into some sort of outpatient rehab, and basically pleas with him not to fire me. Problem is, he is old, 70ish and I assume that if I admit to any kind of substance abuse, he will look down on me and possibly fire me anyways.
He already has grounds to terminate me based on violating the cardholder policy. SO I don't really have any sort of legal defense.
I am freaking out about this, in the process of closing on a home in a couple of weeks and I can't afford to get fired. It was an incredibly stupid decision but again I was not thinking like a rational person, I was thinking like an addict who did what it took to get my next fix. I am going to do the rehab thing regardless.
I guess I was just hoping to get some advice, I'm desperate and cannot think of any solid way to save my ass. What would you do in my situation?
Like I said, please, please no negative comments, I feel like a piece of shit already and have already lined up substance abuse counselling. Thanks in advance.
My problem. Big problem:
A few months back, I was out on a weekend binge, ran out of cash and used my company credit card to obtain funds. Basically I used the card to fuel someone's vehicle in exchange for cash. I was able to BS my way out of it with my boss, acted like my debit card got shut off after a weekend in N.Y., I was out of gas and had no backup cash or cards. I paid the company back almost immediately, so to me it wasn't that big a deal.
Apparently it was a pretty big deal to my boss. The cardholder policy explicitly states no personal use of card. So I assured him I would get a backup card and that it wouldn't happen again.
Fast forward to this past weekend. Same exact shit. You are probably thinking, what an idiot. And you'd be right. BUT, trust me when I say I wasn't in my right mind when I made the decision.
So within 2 weeks, I have to submit the expense report to my boss, and I expect him to not be very happy with me, likely get fired.
My current plan of action is to come clean, explain my problem and get into some sort of outpatient rehab, and basically pleas with him not to fire me. Problem is, he is old, 70ish and I assume that if I admit to any kind of substance abuse, he will look down on me and possibly fire me anyways.
He already has grounds to terminate me based on violating the cardholder policy. SO I don't really have any sort of legal defense.
I am freaking out about this, in the process of closing on a home in a couple of weeks and I can't afford to get fired. It was an incredibly stupid decision but again I was not thinking like a rational person, I was thinking like an addict who did what it took to get my next fix. I am going to do the rehab thing regardless.
I guess I was just hoping to get some advice, I'm desperate and cannot think of any solid way to save my ass. What would you do in my situation?
Like I said, please, please no negative comments, I feel like a piece of shit already and have already lined up substance abuse counselling. Thanks in advance.