"Not needing muscles to attract women" =\= "muscles aren't attractive to women"
"My wife says she doesn't want me to get bigger" =/= "my wife won't find my muscles more attractive when they are bigger"
"I'm happy with my wife and not looking to cheat on her" =/= "I don't care whether I look good for other people" or "I don't like when people find me attractive "
But keep lying to yourself bro man
This is getting pretty weird. This thread was about getting a pump. But you seem to be very fixated on me, and specifically why I started lifting weights. Surely there must be better things for you to obsess about? Maybe stay offline for a while and get some fresh air. It doesn’t effect your life in any way why some other man on a forum is lifting weights.
I have nothing to lie to myself, or anyone else about. I just never cared about fitness, and trying to be muscular never crossed my mind. Especially not to impress anyone. I was diagnosed with a severe bipolar disorder. From a young age I had long bouts of extreme depression, among other neurodiverse issues, which caused many problems in my life. I had tried many approaches to decreasing the symptoms, but without much long term success. Over the years many people had suggested to me that regular exercise may help because of the dopamine release, and the benefit of having a routine, goals, etc. But I always brushed it off, as I had no interest in it and doubted that it would make much of a difference.
I was at a point where I had reached a very low state once again. Terrible sleeping patterns, bad diet, use of alcohol, complete lack of motivation, very low energy and so on. Out of pure desperation wanting to do something that would maybe finally make me feel better, I got a gym membership. The rest was pretty much history. Of course it didn’t cure me. But I did feel much better. My sleep, mood, energy, everything improved. I fell in love with training. Became obsessed with it even. Started learning as much as I could and just wanted to take it as far as I could take it. The more progress I made, the better I felt. Everything just went from there.
Now you can put your mind at ease my friend. No need for any more mental gymnastics and trying to convince yourself of your own made up reasonings for my fitness journey. Each man is on his own path in life. All of us with unique backgrounds and life experiences. Whether you were the fat kid who got bullied, the athletic guy who got injured in a sport and switched to lifting, or your dad took you to the gym from a young age, it led us all here. To find others who share a passion for training and learn from each other.