I can relate with the anxiety. I smoke and then in a minute I'm like yeah I don't like this at all, it's like I'm drowning in a sense lol. It will pass but the experience is very unsettling when it's happening, I know I always think at those times about how I can't imagine the precise feeling when sober, I just suddenly realize, oh yeah here it comes, now I "remember" lol. But still I've smoked for months daily, because at times it is beautiful.
I've been suffering from some very painful dreams to the point I'm dreading going to sleep. Slightly different scenarios but the same type of issues always, tremendous grief, fear and sadness. I kicked a lamp and my laptop off my nightstand a few times, rolled off the bed too, not a very pleasant way to wake up lol.