I will try to keep this short.
3 years ago I started a new career. I was promoted fast after 8 months. This is a 24/7 production and I run graveyard. The stress of not having much manager support has weighed on me but my personal life seems to be the extreme stress.
I have found many incidents of my wife hiding things from me and being very irresponsible with her money and time. She has just resigned a union job due to her going to work and getting a reasonable suspicion alcohol test which she blew a .108 and .103.
I could go with more but 3 weeks ago I found a bombshell. I have tried being supportive and as loving as I can. Through all this distrust I am always on red alert. I looked at her computer and found a video in her trash folder of her masturbating. After seeing the file date and time I realize it was an afternoon when I was sleeping before work. She was literally in the bathroom next to me. I bluntly called her out on it and she got extremely angry and said she was making it for me but didn't send it.
The video was over 3 weeks old so I told her that I didn't believe her. She just ignores it and I have tried to ask her to help me through this. I don't think she would cheat on me but now I wonder if it was a curiosity of hers or it was made for someone else. We have had a normal sexual relationship and I would classify my wife as most normal women that she has things she never has told me about but I don't think she has been super wild either.
Point being this is driving me insane. I have been off work for the last 3 weeks and my ego is gone. I love my wife and I am unsure how to even start to deal with this alone. She does not want to talk about it at all.
3 years ago I started a new career. I was promoted fast after 8 months. This is a 24/7 production and I run graveyard. The stress of not having much manager support has weighed on me but my personal life seems to be the extreme stress.
I have found many incidents of my wife hiding things from me and being very irresponsible with her money and time. She has just resigned a union job due to her going to work and getting a reasonable suspicion alcohol test which she blew a .108 and .103.
I could go with more but 3 weeks ago I found a bombshell. I have tried being supportive and as loving as I can. Through all this distrust I am always on red alert. I looked at her computer and found a video in her trash folder of her masturbating. After seeing the file date and time I realize it was an afternoon when I was sleeping before work. She was literally in the bathroom next to me. I bluntly called her out on it and she got extremely angry and said she was making it for me but didn't send it.
The video was over 3 weeks old so I told her that I didn't believe her. She just ignores it and I have tried to ask her to help me through this. I don't think she would cheat on me but now I wonder if it was a curiosity of hers or it was made for someone else. We have had a normal sexual relationship and I would classify my wife as most normal women that she has things she never has told me about but I don't think she has been super wild either.
Point being this is driving me insane. I have been off work for the last 3 weeks and my ego is gone. I love my wife and I am unsure how to even start to deal with this alone. She does not want to talk about it at all.