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Lucian,
From experience, I can tell you that the pain does not just disappear. However, over time, you can indeed be able to handle it better. I will tell you that by living a "cleaner" life you will be in a better position to let time help you in coping with this pain. Let me explain-
After my loss, I developed a more "socially acceptable" numbing method. I used heavy quantities of alcohol, instead of the heroin in your case. You are right though, either substance does a great job of numbing and pushing away the element of having to come to terms with the actual REAL pain of the the loss. However, what I learned over time was that by not allowing time to help me come to terms and deal with the pain by numbing my brain, the same, intense pain was still there waiting for me when I sobered up.
My point is simply that there will always be pain in remembering a loss like this. However, when you are sober and clear-minded, time actually does heal the wound. You will ALWAYS carry the scar and it may hurt a bit when you poke at it, but it will not always be an open wound like when it first happened IF you are able to reflect on it with a CLEAR mind. Now that you are over the mind numbing, you can get on with allowing time to heal this wound. It will. TRUST ME, it will.
You have my deepest sympathies and I wish you the best in taking this experience and being able to appreciate what you had from when you had your brother with you.
From experience, I can tell you that the pain does not just disappear. However, over time, you can indeed be able to handle it better. I will tell you that by living a "cleaner" life you will be in a better position to let time help you in coping with this pain. Let me explain-
After my loss, I developed a more "socially acceptable" numbing method. I used heavy quantities of alcohol, instead of the heroin in your case. You are right though, either substance does a great job of numbing and pushing away the element of having to come to terms with the actual REAL pain of the the loss. However, what I learned over time was that by not allowing time to help me come to terms and deal with the pain by numbing my brain, the same, intense pain was still there waiting for me when I sobered up.
My point is simply that there will always be pain in remembering a loss like this. However, when you are sober and clear-minded, time actually does heal the wound. You will ALWAYS carry the scar and it may hurt a bit when you poke at it, but it will not always be an open wound like when it first happened IF you are able to reflect on it with a CLEAR mind. Now that you are over the mind numbing, you can get on with allowing time to heal this wound. It will. TRUST ME, it will.
You have my deepest sympathies and I wish you the best in taking this experience and being able to appreciate what you had from when you had your brother with you.