Ahhh ok, that makes more sense. If that is the case, chances are you are losing much more than fat during that hellish cut.
That's just the truth. I have done the same thing...and the slower the diet, the more muscle you will hold. ESPECIALLY if you are pulling out those 3-4k calories and dropping that low, your body is losing a good amount of muscle along the way.
I've done the crash course PSMF in quick time and I've done the slow controlled way, and the slow controlled way always LOOKS better. If anything the past 5 years, I've learned that getting in a RUSH to be lean means i dont end up making as much progress as i THINK i am (well i am, but I'm losing that tissue because I'm in a rush to get lean) I spent long years putting on big tissue and then i'd be too excited to cut...dropping 3+ lbs a week easy. Nope—the wrong way to go. If you were just a regular guy getting ready for the summer, i'd say, "hey, just get there." But since you are putting in time and effort and spending large portions of the year eating this huuuge amount of food, slowwww it down on the way down. I promise you'll like the end result more.